 | Hot guys piss me off ... OK question, I have been with a really hot guy, and he tends to ditch me for his oh so high society, frat boy loven, stoner friends. It pisses me off that I'm his hidden little secret. I understand the whole don't kiss and tell thing, but this has a whole new level to it ... which sucks.. AND yesterday i asked him about my issue and he simply replied "to be honest I'm a jerk" well duh Einstien I knew that one... but then again....**edit* ... {thinks back} .. uhh was I writting a blog... OH yeah LOL .. anyway.. his reasoning for this was because he "grew up where looks were everything" and becasue Im not the perfect barbie doll Im screwed.. I told him to jump out of the mold with it, and to try something new... damnit he wouldnt... whatever.. he's ahottie anyway.. I wish I could find a good hottie , that would accept me for me .. and be able to introduce me to his friends, and hang out like real relationships do. Granted I DO want to ge married and live the good LDS girl life .. So my perfect man would be Handsome (though it doesnt really matter to me and _I_ mean it) LDS, ok with my size, has a career, (or is working on it in school) DOES HE EXIST???? |
Sunday, December 18, 2005
Hot guys piss me off ...
annoyed 
Saturday, December 3, 2005
Why am I a target?? Rape.. a serious blog...
| Sexual Asault... Why am I a target?? Tonight I was sleeping ... I fell asleep on my couch...and I was woken up by my friends boyfriend on top of me kissing me and groping me... He was going to try to RAPE ME... WHY DOES THIS HAPPEN TO ME??????? DO I HAVE A HUGE TARGET ON MY DOOR THAT SAYS .. "PLEASE COME VIOLATE THIS GIRL" ????? I am ANGRY.. I am Sad... I am hurt... I have BEEN raped before... but NOTHING LIKE THIS... Im not saying I was raped this time .. but emotionally I am more violated than my other "rapes".. Before all 4 times I have been raped _I_ led them on.. I had SOME part in letting them think I was interested... NOT IN THIS CASE>>> I have spoken to this man ONCE a month and a half ago.... It was at 11:30pm ... it is now 3 pm I have changed clothes... washed my face and brushed my teeth till they bleed... but I can still smell him here... I DONT FEEL SAFE IN MY OWN HOME... He just CAME IN.. and helped himself to me.. like a serving of tuna fish.. his for the taking.. WHICH I AM NOT ... I AM ANGRY>>>> UPDATE: The detective just called... He ADMITED IT ALL... AHHHHH... in one sence I am glad... so I dont have to "prove" that it really happened to me.. (I have guilt complex) but on the other hand since he admited it.. I think the DA will go lightly on him... and after all .. he didnt penatrate.. BUT I AM STILL EMOTIONALLY RAPED ...
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Kyra's Birthday Party
This is my first Blog, Im kinda excited about it :) HEHE :)
OK well I better write about the subject head LOL :)
OK well Kyra's B-day party was yesterday, she had a blast. It was a "tinkerbell" party... she was tinkerbell for halloween, so she wanted a tinkerbell birthday party.. and as always, she had a dress up party so everyone could wear thier costume a few more times.
She had alot of friends come to her party. and OH my it was a LONG party.. something like 15 kids showed up and OH my they were the most crazy 4-6 year olds!!! HEHE
OH yeah, my 2 friends Josh and Stacey helped me with controlling the little boogers LOL :)
HEHE :)
Talk to ya'll later :)
Mary
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