Wednesday, December 31, 2008

Christmas at moms... well 4 days later LOL :P

So I couldn't make it up to my mom's for Christmas so now that the weather had cleared up i headed down to cedar to see her and have a Quasi Christmas yesterday :)
It was fun, we opened presents and had a feast of snacks ranging from low cal veggi tray, oven baked chicken poppers, baked sweet potato fries to deviled eggs, Sausage meat poppers, and M&M's LOL :P yeah it was kinda fatning.. i think i may have gained back 10 of the 20 lbs I have lost!!!

Speaking of loosing weight I am getting down thanks to my Wii Fit :) and eating like HALF of what I used to :) I am down 20 lbs.. since the beginning of dec. I didn't even fit in 26's very well it was a tight squeeze.. but now I can fit in my 24's again Yeahhhhhh ... so Im proud of myself!!!

back to yesterday's story... my sister and I and our kids went and had lunch, went to go see Bedtime stories .. FUNNY MOVIE!! kind of a chic flick ending though LOL haha.. then we went sledding... it was dangerous that's all I'm saying... haha ... then we came home made our little feast then played "7 card no peeky poker" it was an interesting game to learn to play.. but fun I was the first to loose all their money and my sister cleaned up!!

anyhooo

Kyra's Baptism is on saturday so we are really excited about that.. Ill take some pictures after and post them :)

Kisses

Mary Ellen

Tuesday, December 23, 2008

let it snow!! let it snow!! let it snow!!!!

OK so its snowing like crazy outside so i wont be making it to my mommy's for Christmas .. SO SAD...
so I'm staying home and enjoying the snow.. Kyra and I will likely be going sledding soon and I think we've watched every Christmas movie available in our in home snow shed LOL :P
2 days till the big day kids :P woo hoo

Kisses

Mary

Monday, December 22, 2008

I hate hateing my father!!

****WARNING THIS IS A VENTING BLOG*****



OK ya'll I need to come clean here .. one of the reasons for moving here was to try to repair this awkward wierd stranger thing I have with my father... its never been an outright HATE but just unknowing distrust with me and him.
My sister says he is just kidding around and is rude to everyone but ... DOES THAT MAKE IT OK ?? hell no!!!
This weekend I think I had my final straw.
I was delivering Christmas presents to people and I was taking something to my dads neighbor cause she's a really sweet woman that loves my daughter to pieces. SO I called my step mom to let her know I'd be in the neighborhood. So she invited me to dinner and no sooner than i stepped in their house he went to his room as if to say oh god she's here I'm getting out of here fast. .. I ignored it and thought I'd move on... anyhoo i sat and talked with Sherrie and then dinner was done. Emily their neighbor came over and had dinner with us and oh my he was just out of control rude... I just cant handle him that way. He made very mean hurtful comments about my future profession and it really made me upset and hurt me. His increasing BLATANT disgust with me, his HATE with me, his just total lack of respect of me is really just PISSING ME OFF me.
I have tried every tactic I can to let him know its NOT ok to treat me that way...
Ive tried taking it, laughing it off, ignoring it, walking away, bantering back...
nothing seems to get through to him that its NOT ALRIGHT...
For heavens sake im in school to be a therapist.. a marriage and FAMILY therapist no less.. What kind of a hypocrite am I if I cant even fix my own father issues if people are coming to me for the same problem!!

I digress.. so LAST night was my neces birthday party.
He didn't even say hi to me.. (normally its this awkward hey how you doing, turn and walk away.. but this time just nothing) His wife and I sat down to have a chat My sister was in the room talking to my dad and someone brought up her Christmas present from Tom's Ticket's my dads Ticket business. she works for him occasionally but granted she makes decent money doing it..but hey she does work for him... but seriously why should she get this kick ass bonus present?? oh wait I forgot She is his little precious pet child and it makes me furious!!!
anyhoo...
Sherri noticed I was all annoyed and she was like well you need to give him something useful. She sells tickets, my brother is the electronics, and continues on how everyone (or their spouse) has something they are good at that they do for him. This making them important to him...
SO I say rather loudly i admit it , "well All I can provide him is therapy thats all I am good at but apparently its a useless profession." seriously that comment just cuts me to the core!! Anyway after that it just got to me.. he very obviously was being rude and belittling with his petty comments so I eventually just had to leave.

NO ONE else in our family has got the education that I have except for Kathy. And do i get praised... no i get ridiculed for it!!!
It is just so upsetting..
I texted him last night and wrote "you really hurt me today dad... I dont know how to fix us... please help try to fix us." and I heard nothing back. I cried for about 2 hours...
I think after Kyra's Baptism in January I will just cut off contact until he agree's to sit down and chat about what it is he despises about me so much.

This is such a very different family dynamic system here... I just dont understand why there is no Unconditional love... How do you love.. truely love.. with conditions and take take take.. with no recourse no emotion? I just dont know how to express the complete pain he causes me.

Im just so heart broken ...

Wednesday, December 17, 2008

Im so broken!!!

I am so broken.. Knee shattered, ankle sprained oy.... bed rest
all in the movie

Kisses

Mary

Saturday, December 13, 2008

Waiting for wicked

Ok I have given alot of media coverage of me waiting for wicked.. here is MY video media coverage of the insane line waiting for wicked tickets...
It was fun and we enjoyed it :)
I'm sorry it has taken so long for me to post but I forgot I made the video clips cause of the injury's
Enjoy

Mary

Friday, December 12, 2008

WICKED A fridged night!!!

OK so kids while i work on getting an update on the past month im gonna focus on right now ...
Well Utah had a BIG snow on monday.. and I was being a good auntie Mary and was taking the girls snowuits to school and i crashed and burned in the snow and KILLED my right knee.. like sowllen.. no break but really bad owie!! So they put my in an imobilization thinggy so i cant bend my leg at ALL...
So i thought I was fine and I was waiting in line for wicked (#18 in line I might add of THOUSANDS)... and I was having fun singing dancing even my knee just felt better and so I did something stupid and crashed to the ground... Onto this poor guy sleeping I felt really bad but he was so sweet about it :)
any hoo... most of the news stations interviewed me cause lets admit it kids I AM the biggest wicked fan in Utah!! soo anyhoo here are some of the interviews.. im trying to track them all down to get them all.. but heres some of them...
I will add YES im aware my voice sounds like crap and i look like crap ran over eaten and thrown up cause it was 3 AM!!! (I might add right before I biffed it and rolled my ankle!!!).. but strong as i am I STAYED with the severely sprained ankle, unknowing if it was broken or not. to make sure I got my butt GRAND TEAR SEATS to every sunday night show!!! YEahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh and I did darn it!!!!

Just something to point out in one of the videos im like leaning in the table wher eI ordered the tickets and I have a funny look on my face its cause my ankle was basically KILLING me at that point cause it was 4 hours after the impact!!!

Have fun watching remember to comment guys :P even if its telling me Im a total dork!!

Kisses...


Mary




Wednesday, December 10, 2008

Technical difficulties

Hello everyone.. first off no Im not dead, but many things have happened since last blog. My knee has gotten worse, I had to move, then I have had some computer issues and the computer crashed and was going crazy.. viruses grrrrr...
Anyhoo I will post a video blog later doing the catch up....

Kisses

mary