Thursday, March 2, 2006

Guys.. OYyyyyy....

OK so seriously, guys are annoying me right now. I have like 3 guys that I'm very into... and I have a feeling they MIGHT be into me, not sure if thier just being nice or are really into me... however.. one problem... I DONT TELL THEM... Im afraid if screwing up our friendship.. uggg *sigh* ... however I have all 3 of them on my my space.. can you identify them ??

LOL

heres a hint.... 1/2 the men on my myspace are gay...

:P

Im such a spazzz

Anyway back to the boys, I really want one of them, but he has NO CLUE AT ALL.. and I cant figure out how to make that transition, cause he does have some sort of "power" over me. Which could make it wierd... if he doesnt like me.

am I being dumb and just acting like a teanager drama queen or am I just being oh so passive agressive?

Mary

PS.. I found out today one of these guys no longer has a GF.. should I make the pounce ? or give him some recovery time ???

PSS if you think your one of the guys let me know if YOU are interested :) LOL :P


Tuesday, February 7, 2006

MY NEW JOB ROCKS

February 07, 2006

MY NEW JOB ROCKS

OK if you guys havent already hurd about my new job .. listen closely :)

It is SO AWSOME :)

I am a Consultant for passion parties :)

I get to have a great time telling parties of people about sex, intamacy,, and how to increase the passion in your love life :) I LOVE MAKING PEOPLE HAPPY :)

Go look at my

Come to a prty or even host one :) my first 3 host's will get a special prize :)

You get great free stuff :) more people that you think love going to these things :)
and if your too shy to come to a party, I can show you a catalog or something sometime :)

Let me know :)

you can email me and call me too if you want :)

Sunday, January 1, 2006

DONT EAT 5 CLOVES OF ROASTED GARLIC

DONT EAT 5 CLOVES OF ROASTED GARLIC
Current mood: smelly

OK, so i kinda went crazy and ate 5 whole BULBS of garlic (cause its YUMMY roasted yumm yumm yumm) anyway... and my friend woudn't come near me LOL
they couldnt take my breath so much that they stuck thier heads out of the car (in 9 degree weather no doubt)

AND THEN... it gave me stinky stinky gas.... SO DONT DO IT :)

(if that last one was TMI it was purely for informational "never do it" purposes)

Husband moving to town Ugggg.......

Husband moving to town Ugggg.......

OK so seriously, my soon to be ex husband is moving totown.. he mentioned he MAY move back, but yesterday he suddenly calls and says he's gonna need a ride from the buss drop off to his new appartment.. I was like "What are you TALKING ABOUT ?? " Im not upset about it... It was just sudden. Am very porud of him for getting an apartment on his own, and planning the move all on his own. He usually asks me for help at some point.. I guess I just kinda feel left out HAHA :)

anyway.. it will be wierd having him around again ...

FYI.. we are NOT getting back together.... we are keeping it "just friends"

Mary

Fat chicks and the OPEN discrimination

January 01, 2006

Fat chicks and the OPEN discrimination
Current mood: enraged

This article really cuts to my heart.. You all know im overweight and I see this on a daily basis .. this truely makes me feel more secure knowing that this information is known.... I know it is long, but it really shows MY side of life.. which sucks sometimes.. eventhough Im comfortable with my weight :)

Love you all ...

Mary

Marie Claire Investigation: Why America Hates Fat Women

For years, Americans have spoken out against racism, sexism, and homophobia, but it seems fat is the final frontier: the only thing it’s still acceptable to be openly prejudiced about. Employers pay overweight workers less, insurance companies deny health coverage, and some airlines won’t fly “extra-large” patrons unless they pay for two seats. Fat-bashing runs rampant, and it’s women who are bearing the brunt. But why is it OK to treat anyone who weighs more as less than human? Marie Claire investigates.

By Dana Hudepohl


Where Are Fat Women Feeling The Prejudice?

On Shopping Sprees
A Rice University study found that retail salesclerks do discriminate against obese shoppers. When 10 women wore a prosthesis that made them appear to be a size 22 instead of their normal size, they reported less eye contact, more rudeness, and overt hostility. The only time they faced less discrimination? When the clerks thought the women were trying to lose weight, since they were carrying a diet cola as opposed to an ice cream drink.

On The Job
Researchers at Memphis State University have found that employers are less likely to hire a fat person. And once she lands a job, she will face more discrimination: A recent study in the American Journal of Public Health found that fat women are paid 30 percent less than average-size women – and that’s on top of women already getting paid less than men.

At The Doctor
A Yale University study showed that family doctors and nurses, and even health professionals who specialize in treating obesity, have an anti-fat bias. The researchers also found that obese women often delay breast-cancer screenings, Pap smears, and gynecological exams – and 12 percent of women delay or cancel doctor’s appointments – due to weight concerns.

In Magazines
A recent issue of England’s Maxim magazine ran an article called “How To Pleasure A Fattie – And Live.” Instructions include: “Regularly check she isn’t having trouble breathing under her own weight. Afterward, towel yourself off and make her a snack.”

On A Date
According to a study at the University of Liverpool in England, a man photographed with a fat date is rated 22 percent more negatively (described as miserable, passive, depressed, weak, unattractive, and insecure) than when the same man is pictured with a thin woman by his side.

The Cult of Sweathogging
“Sweathogging,” a dating trend popular on college campuses from Minnesota to Maryland, involves a group of male buddies who head to the bars to zero in on fat girls, whom they call “pigs” or “hogs.” Their thinking: Fat women are so desperate, they guys will be able to score easy one-night stands. The bigger the target, the more “respect” the guys get from friends. “They don’t see fat people as people at all, but as the bottom of the barrel,” says Paul McAleer, creator of Big Fat Blog (www.bigfatblog.com), an online community that advances fat acceptance. One sweathogging frat rat reported to Cleveland Scene, a weekly newspaper, that he and his pals had created a $1400 pot. At the end of the year, the guy who’d scored with the fattest girl won. And we call these institutions of higher education?


The Bridget Jones Paradox
Renee Zellweger shot to fame playing the beloved everywoman. Yet, when she plumped up to play Bridget Jones, columnists mocked her physique. One high-fashion magazine (not Marie Claire) booker her for its cover then refused to run the “fat” photos, only to apologize afterward. Why do we obsess over Zellweger’s yo-yoing? In short, it makes us nervous. “There’s an idea that fatness is something we can change,” says Eric Oliver, author of Fat Politics: The Real Story Behind America’s Obesity Epidemic.” But evidence suggests our bodies hover within a particular, genetically predetermined range.


The “Cute” Fat Suit
Hollywood trots out the fat suit for laughs at least once a year. Monica donned it on Friends, Gwyneth shimmied into it for Shallow Hal, and recently, supermodel Tyra Banks packed on 350 pounds of fat suit on her self-titled talk show. Her goal? To discover how obese people are treated. “Within 10 seconds, a trio of people looked at me … and started pointing and laughing in my face,” she told the AP. Banks, for one, was convinced: Obesity “seemed like the last form of open discrimination,” she said. However, not all fat people appreciated Banks’ efforts to further their cause. “If you wear a fat suit, you don’t know how fat people are treated. You know how people in fat suits are treated,” read one post on bigfatblog.com in reaction to the stunt. “I wonder whether people will accept her report of ‘how fat people are treated.’ She’s not truly fat; she just plays one on TV!” countered another. But the awareness itself is a start, says Paul Campos, a law professor at the University of Colorado and author of The Obesity Myth. “Hollywood in the 1930s focused on the black face,” he says. “The popularity of the fat suit is proof that Americans are starting to realize there’s something deeply problematic with our obsession with weight.”


Fat For Fun And Profit?
In 2004, NBC launched The Biggest Loser, bringing obesity into the reality-TV spotlight, as overweight contestants competed to drop pounds. The ratings were so high – 9.9 million people tuned in to the premiere – that a second season was quickly green-lighted. “Viewers haven’t seen characters like this before,” one of the executive producers has said. “We went for the heart,” added another. Or was it the gut – and belly laughs at the characters’ expense? “When fat people appear on the screen at all, we’re not the hero,
we’re not the romantic lead; we’re the joke or sidekick,” says Marilyn Wann, a civil-rights activist and author of Fat!So? “People ‘learn’ that that’s OK.”


Fat Stats You Need To Know: Recent Studies Reveal Harsh Realities

3% of the major female characters on TV were obese, compared to one in four real American women.

Seven times as many women as men have had gastric-bypass surgery, although woman are only an eighth more likely to be obese.

One third of the women on television are dangerously underweight.

Fat women on TV are twice as likely to be the target of jokes and are less likely to interact with romantic partners or display physical affection.

24% of nurses have said they are repulsed by obese people.

Parents provide less college support for their overweight children than their thin children.

28% of teachers in a Yale University survey said yes when asked whether becoming obese was one of the worst things that could happen to a person.


What YOU Can Do
The biggest reason fat people are still targets of prejudice is that Americans are taught to believe that being overweight is purely lack of discipline. You can change that. Speak up: Say something the next time you witness something that reinforces fat prejudice – be it a joke, an advertisement, or anything else. When a sportswear store in Los Angeles ran an offensive billboard, a concerned citizen contacted the International Size Acceptance Association. “We posted a picture on our Web page, and the billboard was down in three days,” says Allen Steadham, the organization’s founder and director. “Where you get the most mobilization is from the average person.”


The Anti-Fat Backlash
Here, how the overweight are getting seen – and heard

F.A.T.A.S.S.
The Fat Action Troupe AllStar Spirit Squad is a group of fat cheerleaders who cheer, dance, laugh, and have fun – all while getting across a message of loving your body and fighting body-image prejudice. (www.fatasspdx.com)

Padded Lilies
A troupe of fat synchronized swimmers promoting a message of body acceptance, fat empowerment, and fitness at any size. (www.paddedlilies.com)


Big Burlesque
Known as The Original Fat-Bottomed Revue, this group of fat artists and activists performs around the country to show the sexy side of fat. (www.bigburlesque.com)


Targeting Children: A Fat Report Card?
Everyone knows a fat kid who was teased in school; Bill Clinton and Isaac Mizrahi were two. Now, new laws passed in Arkansas and Texas (and proposed in New York and Georgia) require schools to print a child’s weight on his or her report card. By doing that, says Campos, “[You’re telling a 10-year-old girl] that the most important thing about her is not whether she’s doing well in science, math, or history, but whether she can conform to a repressive body ideal.”


A Pregnant Pause?
So deep is our fear of being perceived as fat, even weight gained naturally during pregnancy is contentious. Now, the nine months when we should be celebrating our curves can become the battle of the bulge. Scared of packing on too many pounds, some expecting moms exercise so often they endanger their babies. “The fear of weight gain during pregnancy is rampant,” says Saguy. “People might not say anything about what a great mother you are, but if they see you’ve lost your pregnancy weight quickly, that draws compliments.” Hollywood doesn’t help: Images of celebrity moms further distort the idea of how quickly baby weight should be shed. “As an actress, your job is your body, and you can put in eight hours a day into looking a certain way,” says Sandy Shaffer, president of the New York City chapter of NAAFA, the National Association to Advance Fat Acceptance. “This is not reality.”


Fat Chance!
Even though the overweight and obese outnumber thin Americans, our courts do little to cushion them from prejudice. No federal laws prohibit discrimination against obese people. In fact, only laws in a handful of places around the country – those below – make it illegal to discriminate based on appearance at all:

Michigan
San Francisco, CA
Santa Cruz, CA
Washington, D.C.


Can Women Ever Win?
Fat prejudice is rampant, but thin prejudice occurs, too, as a new lawsuit by actress Kate Hudson brings to light. She’s suing tabloids for publishing photos that she says make her look dangerously thin, a state that she claims could endanger her chance of scoring future movie roles.


Poll: Are You Prejudiced Against Fat People?
Maybe more than you think, according to nearly 400 readers on www.marieclaire.com

68% would like to see a fat person on the cover of a magazine
73% would rather earn 20% less in salary than gain 20 pounds
57% say fat people shouldn’t have to pay for two airplane tickets if they’re too big for the seat
77% have seen a fat girl walk by with an average weight guy and thought, How’d she get him?
52% would go to an obese doctor, but only 13% would see an obese personal trainer
73% have been secretly disgusted when they saw a fat person eating junk food
71% have been secretly satisfied when someone they don’t like gained weight

When given a list of adjectives and asked to choose which described overweight people, respondents said undisciplined, unhappy, and lazy, but sensual, intelligent, and funny also made the cut.

I wonder how many of you, have done any of the things listed in this article.. to ME...the fat chick, cute and fun none the less, FAT

If you have I forgive you, just dont do it anymore..

Please send this fat acceptance letter to all you know and sign below, saying you wont talk smack about fat chicks....

- Mary Ellen -

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Sunday, December 18, 2005

Hot guys piss me off ...

December 18, 2005

Hot guys piss me off ...
Current mood: annoyed

OK question, I have been with a really hot guy, and he tends to ditch me for his oh so high society, frat boy loven, stoner friends. It pisses me off that I'm his hidden little secret. I understand the whole don't kiss and tell thing, but this has a whole new level to it ... which sucks..

AND yesterday i asked him about my issue and he simply replied "to be honest I'm a jerk" well duh Einstien I knew that one... but then again....**edit* ... {thinks back} .. uhh was I writting a blog... OH yeah LOL ..

anyway.. his reasoning for this was because he "grew up where looks were everything" and becasue Im not the perfect barbie doll Im screwed..

I told him to jump out of the mold with it, and to try something new... damnit he wouldnt... whatever.. he's ahottie anyway..

I wish I could find a good hottie , that would accept me for me .. and be able to introduce me to his friends, and hang out like real relationships do.

Granted I DO want to ge married and live the good LDS girl life ..

So my perfect man would be Handsome (though it doesnt really matter to me and _I_ mean it) LDS, ok with my size, has a career, (or is working on it in school) DOES HE EXIST????

Saturday, December 3, 2005

Why am I a target?? Rape.. a serious blog...

December 03, 2005

Sexual Asault... Why am I a target??
Current mood: numb

Tonight I was sleeping ... I fell asleep on my couch...and I was woken up by my friends boyfriend on top of me kissing me and groping me... He was going to try to RAPE ME... WHY DOES THIS HAPPEN TO ME??????? DO I HAVE A HUGE TARGET ON MY DOOR THAT SAYS .. "PLEASE COME VIOLATE THIS GIRL" ?????

I am ANGRY.. I am Sad... I am hurt...

I have BEEN raped before... but NOTHING LIKE THIS... Im not saying I was raped this time .. but emotionally I am more violated than my other "rapes".. Before all 4 times I have been raped _I_ led them on.. I had SOME part in letting them think I was interested... NOT IN THIS CASE>>> I have spoken to this man ONCE a month and a half ago....

It was at 11:30pm ... it is now 3 pm I have changed clothes... washed my face and brushed my teeth till they bleed... but I can still smell him here...

I DONT FEEL SAFE IN MY OWN HOME... He just CAME IN.. and helped himself to me.. like a serving of tuna fish.. his for the taking.. WHICH I AM NOT ...

I AM ANGRY>>>>

UPDATE:

The detective just called... He ADMITED IT ALL... AHHHHH... in one sence I am glad... so I dont have to "prove" that it really happened to me.. (I have guilt complex) but on the other hand since he admited it.. I think the DA will go lightly on him... and after all .. he didnt penatrate.. BUT I AM STILL EMOTIONALLY RAPED ...