MamaMaryEllens Vlog Blog

2009-07-08T07:43:00.000-07:00

Wicked's gone :(

2009-05-04T13:53:00.000-07:00

OK so Yesterday was such a sad day for me :( boo hoo.. I have certainly enjoyed wicked here and I'm busily creating my videos of all the footage i took of their time here in utah :)
I had many fun times, Exciting times and unexpected times with them traveling through Utah :) I would have to say I have 2 highlights .. when the day before I went to the temple (see my temple blog) My mother Kyra and I went and put our names in for the drawing AKA lotto for the show and Kyra won and I won , So out of 400-500 + people that were there hoping for tickets and only 10 names drawn we got 4 tickets :) WOW I was so happy and excited!!
My mother was convinced it was because we were extracting names for the temple while waiting in line.. in convinced it was because the following morning I went through the temple for the first time :) Either way Heavenly Father helped me get those tickets that day!

Then My second Highlight was when I got to hang out with the wicked cast at Merideth Kaye Clarke's after show show at a club in Salt Lake. there were few people there , me and the cast of wicked and a few others . It was FABULOUSLY FUN!!

Anyhoo I will get all these videos up soon :)

Kisses

Mary

Wicked comes to Salt Lake... and I'm a part of it!

2009-04-07T15:09:00.000-07:00

So as many of you all know I'm one of the biggest wicked fans EVER... Certainly the biggest wicked fan in Utah.. Proven by the fact that Kyra and I went down to the capitol theater today and watched the crew unload the wicked trucks :)

As we were getting ready to head downtown Carol Makita of channel 5 news asked to interview me for the news to do a story on Kyra and my passion (some say obsession) with Wicked :) SO i told her we were heading down to try to catch a glimpse of some Set items... We got some Pictures and video... so enjoy :)

I will be adding a couple more videos in the upcoming days :)
Woo hooo :)
YEAh WICKED!!

Kisses
Mary

Geocaching is SOO much fun!! Starter kits!!!

2009-03-09T12:52:00.000-07:00

This blog has all the tools me and my daughter use when we go geocaching...

Our GEOCACHE BAG we have :
A backpack
Garmin GPS (any GPS will do :) )
Notebook
Pens Pencils
A receiving box
A taken box
Easter eggs to keep my caches dry (not necessary)
Cache to leave (I am using stickers right now)
Garden gloves to lift rocks

Above all.. have fun hunting!!

Depending on where you go will depend on how long it will take you to find your cache,
Kyra and I did 6 caches in about an hour this weekend..

**Geo-caching RULES**

1: Don't take from the box/container unless you place something in... and sign the log
2: Don't MOVE the cache, put it right back where you found it, recover as you found it previously
*ex. you find your cache under a rock... put it back under the rock
3: Log it online; go back to http://www.geocaching.com and log your trip to that site, if you take a Travel bug make sure you let the travel bug owner know!! instructions online at geocaching.com
3: DO have fun...

**TIPS**
1: I like to leave fun things for kids cause I know many families that do it as a group.
2: Wear good shoes and clothes... you may get dirty (yeah!)
3: there are Micro caches- small tiny tubes 1-2 inches long up to mega caches Large boxes... try to know which you are looking for!
4: HAVE FUN!!

Again have FUN!!!

If you'd like to Cache with me please let me know I live in Northern Utah and would like some good caching buddies!!

Kisses
Mary

New Semester, New Job, Kyra's baptism

2009-02-05T14:20:00.000-08:00

Kyra gets baptized :) yeah :)

I am so sad i am leaving passion parties!!
I really loved the time I had with the company.. in my parties I tended to focus more on the education and it is one of the reasons why I am in school and learning what I am. I love teaching and helping couple but having passion parties is a conflict of interest in Marriage and family therapy. So to avoid conflicts with Licensing I have chosen to leave.. I'm so sad.. however i know things are moving for me now!
I have joined Pampered Chef to take the place of my passion parties. it is something fun that i can do with my daughter and she can help me measure and cook. One of the things we love to do at home as well. So were gonna take the show on the road :) yeah :)

Christmas at moms... well 4 days later LOL :P

2008-12-31T10:15:00.001-08:00

So I couldn't make it up to my mom's for Christmas so now that the weather had cleared up i headed down to cedar to see her and have a Quasi Christmas yesterday :)
It was fun, we opened presents and had a feast of snacks ranging from low cal veggi tray, oven baked chicken poppers, baked sweet potato fries to deviled eggs, Sausage meat poppers, and M&M's LOL :P yeah it was kinda fatning.. i think i may have gained back 10 of the 20 lbs I have lost!!!

Speaking of loosing weight I am getting down thanks to my Wii Fit :) and eating like HALF of what I used to :) I am down 20 lbs.. since the beginning of dec. I didn't even fit in 26's very well it was a tight squeeze.. but now I can fit in my 24's again Yeahhhhhh ... so Im proud of myself!!!

back to yesterday's story... my sister and I and our kids went and had lunch, went to go see Bedtime stories .. FUNNY MOVIE!! kind of a chic flick ending though LOL haha.. then we went sledding... it was dangerous that's all I'm saying... haha ... then we came home made our little feast then played "7 card no peeky poker" it was an interesting game to learn to play.. but fun I was the first to loose all their money and my sister cleaned up!!

anyhooo

Kyra's Baptism is on saturday so we are really excited about that.. Ill take some pictures after and post them :)

Kisses

Mary Ellen

let it snow!! let it snow!! let it snow!!!!

2008-12-23T14:28:00.000-08:00

OK so its snowing like crazy outside so i wont be making it to my mommy's for Christmas .. SO SAD...
so I'm staying home and enjoying the snow.. Kyra and I will likely be going sledding soon and I think we've watched every Christmas movie available in our in home snow shed LOL :P
2 days till the big day kids :P woo hoo

Kisses

Mary

I hate hateing my father!!

2008-12-22T16:34:00.000-08:00

****WARNING THIS IS A VENTING BLOG*****

OK ya'll I need to come clean here .. one of the reasons for moving here was to try to repair this awkward wierd stranger thing I have with my father... its never been an outright HATE but just unknowing distrust with me and him.
My sister says he is just kidding around and is rude to everyone but ... DOES THAT MAKE IT OK ?? hell no!!!
This weekend I think I had my final straw.
I was delivering Christmas presents to people and I was taking something to my dads neighbor cause she's a really sweet woman that loves my daughter to pieces. SO I called my step mom to let her know I'd be in the neighborhood. So she invited me to dinner and no sooner than i stepped in their house he went to his room as if to say oh god she's here I'm getting out of here fast. .. I ignored it and thought I'd move on... anyhoo i sat and talked with Sherrie and then dinner was done. Emily their neighbor came over and had dinner with us and oh my he was just out of control rude... I just cant handle him that way. He made very mean hurtful comments about my future profession and it really made me upset and hurt me. His increasing BLATANT disgust with me, his HATE with me, his just total lack of respect of me is really just PISSING ME OFF me.
I have tried every tactic I can to let him know its NOT ok to treat me that way...
Ive tried taking it, laughing it off, ignoring it, walking away, bantering back...
nothing seems to get through to him that its NOT ALRIGHT...
For heavens sake im in school to be a therapist.. a marriage and FAMILY therapist no less.. What kind of a hypocrite am I if I cant even fix my own father issues if people are coming to me for the same problem!!

I digress.. so LAST night was my neces birthday party.
He didn't even say hi to me.. (normally its this awkward hey how you doing, turn and walk away.. but this time just nothing) His wife and I sat down to have a chat My sister was in the room talking to my dad and someone brought up her Christmas present from Tom's Ticket's my dads Ticket business. she works for him occasionally but granted she makes decent money doing it..but hey she does work for him... but seriously why should she get this kick ass bonus present?? oh wait I forgot She is his little precious pet child and it makes me furious!!!
anyhoo...
Sherri noticed I was all annoyed and she was like well you need to give him something useful. She sells tickets, my brother is the electronics, and continues on how everyone (or their spouse) has something they are good at that they do for him. This making them important to him...
SO I say rather loudly i admit it , "well All I can provide him is therapy thats all I am good at but apparently its a useless profession." seriously that comment just cuts me to the core!! Anyway after that it just got to me.. he very obviously was being rude and belittling with his petty comments so I eventually just had to leave.

NO ONE else in our family has got the education that I have except for Kathy. And do i get praised... no i get ridiculed for it!!!
It is just so upsetting..
I texted him last night and wrote "you really hurt me today dad... I dont know how to fix us... please help try to fix us." and I heard nothing back. I cried for about 2 hours...
I think after Kyra's Baptism in January I will just cut off contact until he agree's to sit down and chat about what it is he despises about me so much.

This is such a very different family dynamic system here... I just dont understand why there is no Unconditional love... How do you love.. truely love.. with conditions and take take take.. with no recourse no emotion? I just dont know how to express the complete pain he causes me.

Im just so heart broken ...

Im so broken!!!

2008-12-17T14:19:00.000-08:00

I am so broken.. Knee shattered, ankle sprained oy.... bed rest
all in the movie

Kisses

Mary

Waiting for wicked

2008-12-13T14:16:00.000-08:00

Ok I have given alot of media coverage of me waiting for wicked.. here is MY video media coverage of the insane line waiting for wicked tickets...
It was fun and we enjoyed it :)
I'm sorry it has taken so long for me to post but I forgot I made the video clips cause of the injury's
Enjoy

Mary

WICKED A fridged night!!!

2008-12-12T20:38:00.000-08:00

OK so kids while i work on getting an update on the past month im gonna focus on right now ...
Well Utah had a BIG snow on monday.. and I was being a good auntie Mary and was taking the girls snowuits to school and i crashed and burned in the snow and KILLED my right knee.. like sowllen.. no break but really bad owie!! So they put my in an imobilization thinggy so i cant bend my leg at ALL...
So i thought I was fine and I was waiting in line for wicked (#18 in line I might add of THOUSANDS)... and I was having fun singing dancing even my knee just felt better and so I did something stupid and crashed to the ground... Onto this poor guy sleeping I felt really bad but he was so sweet about it :)
any hoo... most of the news stations interviewed me cause lets admit it kids I AM the biggest wicked fan in Utah!! soo anyhoo here are some of the interviews.. im trying to track them all down to get them all.. but heres some of them...
I will add YES im aware my voice sounds like crap and i look like crap ran over eaten and thrown up cause it was 3 AM!!! (I might add right before I biffed it and rolled my ankle!!!).. but strong as i am I STAYED with the severely sprained ankle, unknowing if it was broken or not. to make sure I got my butt GRAND TEAR SEATS to every sunday night show!!! YEahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh and I did darn it!!!!

Just something to point out in one of the videos im like leaning in the table wher eI ordered the tickets and I have a funny look on my face its cause my ankle was basically KILLING me at that point cause it was 4 hours after the impact!!!

Have fun watching remember to comment guys :P even if its telling me Im a total dork!!

Kisses...

Mary

Technical difficulties

2008-12-10T09:01:00.000-08:00

Hello everyone.. first off no Im not dead, but many things have happened since last blog. My knee has gotten worse, I had to move, then I have had some computer issues and the computer crashed and was going crazy.. viruses grrrrr...
Anyhoo I will post a video blog later doing the catch up....

Kisses

mary

Gastric- VS- lapband... My decision

2008-11-07T19:44:00.000-08:00

My knee has gotten so bad that I could not walk for 3 days!! so I gimped myself to the Dr's office, and he basically said I over worked my knee out of nowhere, and again the fat me got mentioned.. "loose weight loose weight blah blah blah" I was like Umm duhh dip$hit that"s why im working out to get the weight off!!!

So anyhoo...

we discussed the fact that i need to get the weight off.. SOONER than later..
we agree'd i was doing a great job getting myself started, but my body doesn't know how to understand the sudden exercise and such with such a great weight on the joints. I now have had problems with BOTH knees, and my ankle, my back is suffering, and Its jut not getting better.
So along with my doctor, we agree'd that instead of lap band I will be getting gastric... because health wise i need to get this weight off FASTER than what Lap band will do. and faster than exercise will do.. (even though I will remain working out, my weight is just TOO much for my body to handle just working out with my joints) ...
I know it sounds like a failure.. and a cop out.. but seriously its not...
I went to the Utah weight loss center a few weeks ago to discuss the options,, because I HAVE worked hard, and have seen NO RESULTS... reason.. I fully admit, I am am emotional eater, and my stomach has been so stretched out that I don't even know what full feels like anymore, and to get to feel that feeling again, will really aid in helping me loose the weight!! and curb this over eating/ emotional eating!!

As part of the surgery I do have to maintain workouts and go to a support group once a week, so I am surely not going to be in total left field!!

I hope that you are all supportive of my decision, this however does NOT mean Im dropping exercise all together. I am not...
Unfortunately because of the knee I have been limited to doing my stairs (i live on the 3rd floor) and water exercise, so I have located the Golds Gyms that have pools and plan to go 3 times a week.

OK so new game plan...
but Im still going strong Kids!!

Kisses ...

Mary

Princess competiton

2008-10-28T21:36:00.000-07:00

Ok I totally had so much fun dressing up Kyra!! :P
I spent along time working on her dress and her hair, but im glad that she totally enjoyed it!! yeahhh :) we also went throught david archuleta Corn maze, it was way fun too ;P you heard his music through out the maze it was funny.. we played in his hair LOL :P hahaha
Im sorry I totally forgot to post this the other day, but hey better late than never right ?

Save Tracey Aviery and Hogle zoo projects!!

2008-10-22T14:33:00.000-07:00

Hey guys and gals :)
First I am so mad at myself for not working on Kyra's dress... i gotta move my tail to get it done...
Poor Glinda... she doesn't feel well.. but its looking like she's feeling better.

I talk about fat content in Cereal cause I was shocked to find out that it was the opposite of what I thought!! Frosted flakes are your friend!! LOL

I also talk about the Prop 1 and prop 2 here in Utah ..
here are the links to learn about the propositions.. there aren't really any opposition, its just up for a vote...
so here are links to more information on them

Prop 1 - Save the Aviary
http://www.savetheaviary.com/

Tracy Aviary is a jewel unlike almost anything in the nation – right here in Salt Lake County.

* One of only two public aviaries in the entire country
* The only public aviary west of the Mississippi
* The oldest and largest public aviary in the nation

But the Aviary has suffered from decades of under-investment. Despite the Aviary’s best efforts, roofs are leaking and infrastructure is crumbling. Due to these problems and uncertain future funding, the Aviary was denied accreditation from the Association of Zoos and Aquariums in 2006.

Salt Lake County residents have high standards for their public facilities. Proposition 1 will enable the Aviary to re-emerge as a world-class, AZA-accredited facility with a clear path for continued success.

Prop 2- Add to the zoo
https://www.hoglezoo.org/renew-the-zoo/
The Salt Lake County Council has placed a $33 million bond on the ballot in November. This will cost the average household $0.39/month. The bond will help the Zoo build an Arctic Exhibit with animals like polar bears, seals, and wolves and an African Savanna that could make a home for giraffes, rhinos, and zebras among other things.

thanks so much again
dont forget to comment and all that Jive :)

Kisses and Huggs!!

Mary Ellen

Marfans disease, Aspergers, and Lab band....

2008-10-15T15:16:00.000-07:00

hey guys lots to talk about today. mainly about Marfans disease,
My ongoing Aspergers research, and the fact that I might be getting lap band.

please visit my website: http://www.mamaMaryEllensBlog.com

more on Marfans disease visit

http://www.marfans.org

My personal favorite Aspergers autism website

http://www.yourlittleprofessor.com

thanks guys subscribe and PLEASE comment :)

First SNOW of the season :)

2008-10-12T13:02:00.001-07:00

Howdy ya'll Ü

Kyra and I have been anticipating our favorite day of the year all week :) it its HERE.. Kyra and I LOVE the first snowfall of the season!! we got an amazing 4 inches which is the most perfect depth.. its enough to play in and do snowmen but not enough to get in the way of traffic and such!!
So Kyra and I woke up with the pretty white snow pure as ever!! we went to church and Kyra was a little anxious ants in her pants little one today during Sacrament.. she wanted to get out and play RIGHT NOW.. so once we got home she was allowed to go play :) she kept making these mini snow man the size of your hand it was too cute :)

I cant find my camera ( SO SAD :( :( ) so i had to put it on the V-log...
Also posted on the blog is the Dress Ive been working hard on for Kyra for Halloween :)
She's Gonna be glinda and the Vlog has a step by step of the PAIN in the butt it is.. but well worth the reward :)

What are you gonna be fore Halloween?? Tell me :)
I need better Ideas

Kisses and huggs

Mary Ellen

(remember if the video is not ready give it a couple minutes, I uploaded a higher quality video to show deeper details of the dress :) so it might take longer for it to process :) )

FIRE FIRE FIRE!!!

2008-10-02T04:44:00.000-07:00

Hello I was woken up bright and early at 4ish this morning... why ??? Watch the movie... I tried getting video/ pictures of the fireman and fire trucks but it was all black (crap) but I put them in anyway ....

Ironically I had a discussion with my friend JUST YESTERDAY about the fact that I sleep well.. O natural... I thought they did too... they said , oh no what if there's a FIRE? I dont want out run out naked!! I laughed and said... hey if it happened to me I would get dresses and run out...
Well I heard a **ding**ding** at around 4 AM **SLAM **SLAM*** SLAMM***... then firemen yelling loudly "GET UP THERES A FIRE IN THE BUILDING.." I jumped out of bed, went to the door in my blanket, Got Kyra up, got dressed, took my laptop and Kyra's baby pictures(cd's much more compact than the scrap books LOL :P) and took off down the stairs .. half way down I realized I didnt have my phone OR my Camera.. DANG IT!!! they wouldn't let me get it ... I remembered I had Kyra's phone in my car in case I needed it... so I put Glinda in the car (cause there were other dogs and cats out there, and glinda likes to play ... and I let her play... just not at 4 AM!!)put my computer and pictures in the car, and got the phone.. I did get a DECENT picture off that phone but I blocked data transfer ***dohhh***
so anyway...
I gather with the other neighbors and we take account of everyone there, my new neighbor across the hall wasn't there, so I let the Firemen know, he HAD come out just went to his truck... :P
anyhoo were all talking about the smoke then we see the fire truck that WAS on lifts, get taken down and see the hose get put away , we all knew .. they got the fire.. but where?? the curiosity killed the cat and I went up to the fire men (yes they were HOT firemen :) yummy!! ) and asked.. they said .. are you in (this apartment) ?? I said no .. then my neighbor downstairs said.. Ohh that's me.... he said I need to take you upstairs and talk with you... I was like DANG she's in trouble!!! I knew she's a smoker ..so I thought that might have been what it was...
we were let back in the house then I grabbed my camera (took those crappy pictures) and then asked the firemen what it was..

The neighbor had a bunch of plants from the summer that had dried up. and she apparently put a cigarette in the plant, and it went up in flames, I guess it took out a tee shirt too and was about to set the patio a-blaze...
we were able to get back to our houses at 5:30 AM and I of course blogged you guys :P
that brings me up to this very moment...

Kisses

Mary Ellen

Brothers in law ARRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGG

2008-10-01T09:45:00.000-07:00

I'm pissed at them... I have had time to reflect on what they have done... they hurt me, and don't even pretend to care... I am REALLY hurt...
Im not saying what they did but THEY know what they did...
I am not understanding why they think its funny or aim to hurt me!!! I don't care if they thought it was funny.. its NOT FUNNY... its my PAST... keep it in my PAST!!!

School Dad's birthday and Family

2008-09-30T09:34:00.000-07:00

Ok so I haven't written in days cause Ive been focused on school...
My school hasn't received title 4 funding yet so they are waiting for that so i cant get my loan, cause i cant get my loan I haven't been able to get my BOOK... so I had to cram 10 chapters within 3 days!! OYYYYYYY!!! and I had 4 written assignments and 2 presentations to prepare..

the presentation went fine other than the fact that my power point I made it in was the Vista version of power point and wouldn't load in XP... Uggg....
I spent 4 hours making that incredable powerpoint..

Im actually weird and enjoy doing powerpoint so its not tooo torturing LOL :P

I also went to the Relief society Conference which was really good!! i took my step mom Sherrie ... it was fun getting to know her and see her in a different way :)
After the conference it was my dads birthday so I had dinner with Sherrie and my dad... he was very pleasant and I could see he was purposefully trying to be nice which I greatly appreciated. mabee things with him and I are looking up :) (yeahhhhhh!!!!)

Sunday I went to church, I said the closing prayer in sacrament.. I was very nervous.. I did just fine though :) then I went to my dads for his birthday party...
I have noticed a very odd dynamic among my family, not negative, just different from what I'm used to. I'm still trying to "figure everyone out" sometimes I feel like I'm walking on eggshells though but i assume it will get better as time goes by.

The Gawkers...

2008-09-23T11:31:00.000-07:00

Ok at my Gym I have noticed we have some "gawkers" ...
You know who I'm talking about .. the old man wearing Jeans sitting on a weight lifting machine he CLEARLY hasn't touched so that he can DROOL at the little skinny girls in their tight workout outfits... The mid 30's guy that looks like a 40 year old virgin in the making. It's really quite funny!! I love watching the men watch the women.. LOL :P
Is it narcissistic of me to be offended that none of the gawkers have gawked me ?? LOL :P heck at least I have BOOBS that are REAL.. :P is it too much to ask to have a guy do a second take of me??
Granted I am MUCH larger than the average "work out girl" but well anyway.. I think im over this rant..
Since I'm talking about my workout success...
I am still going every day :) (Saturday and Sunday I don't go though cause I have Kyra) I weighed myself I am 298.7 .. so I Guess I lost 2 lbs... well considering my phone probably weighs at least a half pound right??
Today at the Cardio Cinema they had Jumanji, i love that movie .. i got all into it.. made me forge ti was working out.. I was on the Elliptical for 30 mins (2 miles) and then walked on the treadmill for 20 mins. I would have kept going but my phone alarm went off cause I had a meeting this morning I forgot about. (and I missed it... CRAP)

anyhoo sorry my blog is kinda random rambling but I really wanted to give you all something to read about today :)

I spent a large portion of yesterday updating a few things on my blog, you can now click on the line above the blog to add me to your browsers favorites list so you can easier come back and see me ;)
you can also add my banner to your website, blog, my-space page etc etc.. if you scroll down on the right it is down there .. tell your friends about me ;)

I need to get working on a presentation I must make about myself for school due on friday :) so Im gonna go get to working on that ..
thanks for reading today :)
dont foget to Save me, favortie me :) and comment on me :)

Kisses

Mary

Get RID of the ARMS instead of bailing the banks!!

2008-09-22T09:23:00.000-07:00

Im gonna go political here.. ya'll know I am political, but I honor other peoples opinions so I generally dont discuss it.

What is the government thinking Keeping on bailing out all of the companies???
Coudlnt they BAN ARMS ****and**** FORCE the banks to convert all ARM loans into regular loans??? this would save SO MANY people from losing thier houses! and keep our contry from going AS FAR in the shitter as possible!!!

The problem thats going on right now is that when People got arms they were told hey in 2-3 years when your arm mature refinance and you'll be fine.. well noone can GET a loan right now!! .. Like NO ONE I know can get a loan.... My mother who is 64 and has her house and 2 other houses (investment houses) cannot get a refinance loan and she's gonna be SCREWED... along with the other MILLIONS of people in a similar situation!!

SO I think Im gonna take a stand... and start a petition on my face book and PLEASE PLEASE join.. if enough people Join they cannot ignore the demand right??

I have written the petiotion it is just getting OK'd by the website that clears it... I will post it as soon as it is ready :) (probably later today)

Kisses and huggs

Mary Ellen

Working out?!?!?! IM 300LBS!!!

2008-09-20T10:56:00.000-07:00

OK guys I have has some encouragement laity and can come back to the gym to work out!! so all week i have been re familiarizing myself with the Gym..

I have a membership at Golds and literally its a half block turn and another block.. beyond walking distance to get myself going!! So all this week Ive been taking Kyra to school then going to the gym for an hour or so.. I have been enjoying the different features this gym has over the one in Cedar city!!
First off it is color coded for the idiots!! LOL ;P green is leg machines abs are orange etc etc... I do so enjoy that!! Also they have "cardio cinema" .. there are 2 rooms with about 4 rows of cardio machines (treadmills elliptical bikes)and they are playing a movie while you workout!! so nice!! I have to use the elliptical because of my foot, but I walk a mile on the treadmill.

So this is my routine at the gym...
Cardio Cinema ; Elliptical (15 min mile - 1 mile) then treadmill (15 min mile- 1/2 mile to 1 mile depending on how my knee/ ankle feels)
Weights ... I switch back and fourth on the weighs from arms/abs.. to legs ...

Ive even been eating this all nutritious food and everything.. 1 egg 2 egg whites, canadian bacon (did you know its only 60 calories!! WOW and not alot of fat either!! but mucho proteins!!) I even cleaned cut and prepped a bunch of veggies to keep on hand for snacks which have been cutting my binge lazy eating :)

Anyhoo.. When i started a week ago I was 299.4... Depressingly I re-weighed myself yesterday Im 300.7 Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh that sucks I have been working this hard to ADD weight..
Yeah yeah yeah.. muscle burns more fat .. blah blah blah...
still the POUNDAGE is annoying...

I have however noticed my pants fitting better :) woo hoo for that :P

Again My cam is still being weird im hoping to get another video up for you all soon enough :0 thanks again for being such loyal readers / viewers :)

No More Time Outs

2008-09-17T11:41:00.000-07:00

Hey everyone I am so very Excited.

As many of you know I have been using a new discipline/ reward system For Kyra. I have created I am now calling "No More Time Outs"

Many other parenting programs I have read about/ used are so single focused' and lose vital parts and elements that I feel need to be there...

Time outs don't teach anything... oh wait it teaches them to sit and pout...

Sentences don't teach anything... Oh wait teaches them to Write... IIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII in a single like with crosses LOL :P I so cheated by doing that as a kid!!

Being sent to their room when they have a computer, Ipod, PS3 etc.. is NOT punishment.. it just gets them out of your hair!!

and my "favorite" (pet peeve) parenting "skill" is smack their kids to teach them not to hit!! **insert eye roll here**

The problem here is that the kids don't know what to expect by thier parents, and give no true "natural consequence" ... No More Time Outs teaches many values and REQUIRES parent to take an active role in parenting, and the child an ACTIVE role in their life creating great self esteem and pride in their points!!!
I have been using No More Time Outs with my daughter and its been working WONDERFULLY!!!
I have had a handful of people ask to help with their children and to give them my program.. SO I got to thinking ... this would be an amazing program to publish so I visited my Campus President about my program and he is VERY excited to be an adviser to the program and get it up and running for me and more importantly for parents that will need it!! and get it Copyrighted and PUBLISHED!!

I don't want to reveal all of the elements of the program because we are going to try to get it copyrighted and until I do that someone can steal it .. but as preview to the program is that it is a token ecomomy that gives benefit to self accountability to household and personal duties, and gives benefit to self, family, friends and even monetary values... and even behavioral management.
Its very exciting and I am extremely pleased that there is such interest in the program!!!

******happy dance*****

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No video today because of the Problems with my program... I am going to try to get it fixed ASAP

Mary Ellen

Utah state fair

2008-09-14T11:02:00.000-07:00

SO sorry everyone this video is not what I normally have (set up sise) cause my STUPID video maker isnt working right!!! Grrrrrrrr.....

Well Please enjoy its only like 40 seconds long...

Mary

Friends? What makes a true friend?

2008-09-13T09:58:00.001-07:00

I have had about 10 "real friends" in my life...

I feel a true friend is a person who looks out for your needs and your concerns, and in turn I look out for their needs and their concerns. It is so hard to find a friend who can do that!!

I can name 3 people in my life currently that do that for me...

Shawn Luther

Christi Giles

Stacey Gwin...

These three have stuck with me and are there for me no matter what and they know they can do the same and I will be there for them 150 million percent!!!

This blog has been inspired by Stacey, I meet her 3 years ago in the midst of my divorce to my husband and she has been the most gracious wonderful friend!! She helped me through some hard times, I helped her through some hard times. Its give and take... heres the back story of what inspires me to write this... Her father was on the Island that Ike hit only hour before it hit. Her poor father's car had broken down and it took a miracle from God to fix and she told me the troopers said that had he waited another 10 minutes he wouldn't have been able to pass the bridge and he would have been trapped!!!
She was distraught and upset and I was so honored for her to call ME to vent!! I feel it such a privilege to have my friends trust me so much that they call when they need a shoulder to cry on and someone to find the bright side... I love her and her husband very much and value their friendship beyond comprehension!!

I recently lost a great friend, for those that watch my blog know who I mean, I lost her to a very hard challenge. She called me yesterday and said some hurtful things, it made me sad knowing our friendship was worth what it was!! and to be thrown out like lost garbage... Her friendship being lost is what hurts the most... I have thought about what it means to be a friend... I V-loged it.. I think it means more with the emotion behind it!!

do you agree or disagree with my list??

Ok please post your comments!!!

thanks

Mary ellen
OK kids I'm off to the Utah state fair.. I will do a vlog there and post it when I get home!!

Yeahhhh... promoting promoting promoting!!

2008-09-12T11:45:00.000-07:00

Hey ya'll I have been on over drive promoting the crap out of my new blog :)

please join me by adding my banner :)

I am just so excited to get moving on my dream of having my blog up and running!!!

heres my video for today :)

Tomorrow I am going to the Utah state fair so I will take some video and some pictures to share :)

thanks again all :)

Mary Ellen

Getting Serious on Blogger

2008-09-11T07:24:00.000-07:00

OK guys all of you may notice me transferring my blogs from myspace over here to Blogger... I have 89 blogs!!! I will transfer them all today ... and then blog again... for today :)

Please comment and subscribe Im new to the blogger world :)

Loves ya!!!

Mary Ellen

Technology is NOT my friend today!!!

2008-09-08T07:00:00.000-07:00

ok long week again... very active.. I will let you know there is no video today cause I am at the district fighting for Kyra's services at school... the lady I'm supposed to talk to is in a meeting and I'm waiting for her to get out I'm not gonna wait around for a phone call I might get next week my child needs her services NOW!!!

ok so Saturday before last kyra went out to play at around 9 ish and came in the house around noon for lunch when she returned she had chicken pox all down her chest and back!! I rushed her to kids care (like urgent care for kids) and yep sure was...i was like what the heck?? she got the vaccine!! apparently 5% of kids with the vaccine will get chicken pox. upside is it wasn't a terrible bad case but enough to keep her out of school!!! so I called a friend of mine to talk about it and she was in distress of her own kind....

I was very hard to handle at times and she needed me... so I told her since Kyra couldn't go to school anyway I'd be down on a few hours to help her through. we had a court mediation anyway that week that I had to be in cedar for.
anyhoo...

*edit* Im home now so I have made a video of the weeks events ...

I am apologizing ahead of time my editing software was being wierd so i couldnt edit how I like to ..

enjoy :)

Mary Ellen

CraseinChina.org ...WTF??? I crack half way through... stay tuned!!!

2008-08-29T07:05:00.000-07:00

OK so I start off this blog singing.. Ok after listening to Natalie Weiss, and Shoshana Bean online I'm like DAMN I stink.. but hey I must be SOMEWHAT good if people ask me to sing right? Im sure they didnt get thier music down in one day right ?

then I talk abut my brother going to China, {plug adams website here} ... Oh wait I need to plug his blog website.. it is www.CraseInChina.org ... then I talk about my father situation, go off on my sister.. and umm yeah end really pissed off... After you watch it you might be saying to yourself.. dang Mary HATES her dad, i don't HATE him.. I am very frustrated with him, and bothered by his behavior.. but yes.. at a point in this very video I CRACK!! Like loose my mind for like 3.6 seconds ... I hope you enjoy that part :P

Kisses...

Mary Ellen

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Its not stalking ... is it ???

2008-08-12T07:07:00.000-07:00

OK so I'm no stalker but I admit it was fun seeing Arnold at work today .. haha (explained in the blog) plus I texted him and he said i needed to come in so I did LOL :P

Seriously this blog needs to be titled.. the life of a single mom on a dating quest or something hahaha

It's all on the blog ...

Kisses

Mary

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Wild Mouse rumors... Did someone die?

2008-08-07T07:08:00.000-07:00

OK so we have an amazing amuzement park here in utah I have been going to since um.. birth... called lagoon. they have a ride called the wild mouse, as a child everyone said that someone has died on there blah blah blah .. so like rumors go.. i said it too.. wiout proof.. well I did some research and its actually totally false.. I have not let Kyra go on wild mouse since we moved here because of that so we went on for the first time and I was crying like a baby that got beat up!! hahah I'm sure it was all to funny for the 2 teens in front of us though LOL ..

Anyhoo .. i met a guy ..Arnold is this ones name.. he's great well educated and has alot in common with me.. loves politics .. like me.. and we have the same opinions on almost everything political.. which is a huge turn on!! wierd I know .. but its true LOL :P

so any way enjoy the video for today :)

Mary

(yes I know again this one is late Im sorrry.. Im posting one for today too ... )

My birthday

2008-08-02T07:28:00.000-07:00

my birthday
my birthday

Court Pre-Trial

2008-07-30T07:29:00.000-07:00

Court Pre-Trial

I have court this morning with Sean.... Wish me luck !!.. Like I need it or something!! This is SUCH an open and shut case if the truth is told.. I do believe that truth will set you free!!

Mary

YEaaahhhh... A successful Move!!!

2008-07-22T07:31:00.000-07:00

The move went well, we are mostly all settled in , so We have been having all too much fun at Lagoon :) WOo hoo :)
even today Im up at 12:12 cause I was at lagoon till late!!

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Pretty flowers and construction

2008-07-08T07:41:00.000-07:00

OK so for once I don't do an entire Vlog all about the move.

The decision to not work and focus on my family and my internship was very hard, but one I had to make, I have to get 3000 internship hours done before the program is finished so I am ok with the financial sacrifice as long as it is for the better good of my daughter.

court.. all I have to say is OY...

Almost ready to roll..

BTW which flowers are which season ?
there is a bell looking flower, rose, tulip and a daffodil... you know??

Message me let me know..

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Kisses
Mary Ellen

4th of July WOOoo HOoooo

2008-07-04T07:43:00.000-07:00

Ok guys sorry the blog doesn't consist of me talking.. but good news I found my digi-cam so I have had it ready and handy this week :) so lots of pictures to share with you,
We did alot this week,
Packing
Gabby's birthday party...
More packing...
4th of July we went to the Cedar parade, then lunch then a movie with Kyra's wonderful aid Mrs. B whom we will miss so much she's been the best!! seriously I worry if Kyra will get as compassionate of an aid in the future!! seriously that's how amazing she was!... then off to Enoch 4th of july festivities, it was great they had a mud volleyball tournament, and it was a ton of fun :) then of course fireworks..
and to top it off with EVEN more packing... I think were just about done.. I'm gonna move everything into the living room to make sure everything is gone out of the rooms.. things can hide easily :P

anyhoo so that is whats going on for now..
Ill try to message soon ..

I hope you enjoy the video..
Kisses and huggs :)

Mary

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Church N stuff

2008-06-30T07:43:00.000-07:00

Camping and boys

2008-06-23T07:49:00.000-07:00

Hey there,
OK so we did end up going camping which was fun! Yeahhh...

Just to Clarify.. Kyra and I had our blankies and Steven and his son had their own blankies so its not as dirty as you think!! LOL it was a fun getting to know each other camping experience!!

Who knows what the future may bring??

Love ya

Mary Ellen

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Dance FUN

2008-06-22T07:55:00.000-07:00

hey everyuone :)
the dance was great last night :) meet a guy it was fun :) thats all im gonna say!! Im pooped and I gotta go to work *sigh*
Kisses
Mary

Love ya

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Moving thoughts ???

2008-06-20T07:56:00.000-07:00

OK guys I am excited and nervous about going to school again , I had a great year off since graduation, but its time to get moving on my career!!

Kyra joins our blog again today, to talk about our pending move in Sept.

Love ya

Mary Ellen

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Computer Whhhooaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhs

2008-06-19T07:57:00.000-07:00

Hey there everyone :)
SO I got a new computer and it is not what I hoped.. it has advantages and disadvantages .. hey the clicking has gone away but the cam makes my head green!! mabee its an Aura thing ?? LOL

anyhoo :)

Comment positive happy things cause I cant handle any more frustrations today LOL :P grrrr...

Love ya

Mary Ellen

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Utah Summer Games

2008-06-17T07:58:00.000-07:00

OK so yes.. I know I haven't posted in a while.. Ive been a busy chic :P

I hope you enjoy the blog today :)
we went to Utah Summer games which is fun :) worked n the garden, there is some video of the fireworks and also the girls thinking they are funny wearing my pants :P

Kisses and huggs :)

Mary Ellen

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Quizno's

2008-06-10T07:32:00.000-07:00

me working with ,my client at quiznos, I was trying to ween myself off of him, since I was moving.
Sorry I didnt post this till now .. I had it finished right after I made it I just didnt post it till know cause I didnt have internet available lOL

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Friendship Work and SUNSHINE!!

2008-06-09T07:59:00.000-07:00

Hey Everyone,
This whole thing with me and my friend is really making me sad :( I wish my friend would realize I just love her and would love to work with her!! :P and Im NOT trying to steal her job... *ahhh*

On a happier note I loved the gorgeous day today, beautiful sunshine, and warm weather!! Kyra and I swam and enjoyed the day playing board games till sunset :)

woo hoo
What do you do one warm days? HUH ???

Kisses and smooches :)

Mary Ellen

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LOooooooooooong Weekend!!

2008-06-08T07:59:00.000-07:00

Here everyone :) its me Mary again,
Geez we had a long weekend :) it was a fun one though!!
Sex and the city was a good movie and so was Indiana Jones :)

Kisses and huggs see you tomorrow!!!

Mary Ellen

Kyra's dad and his wife

2008-06-05T08:02:00.000-07:00

Ok many of you know about the situation between me and Kyra's dad. if you do skip to 3:30 to hear the letter I have sent to him... If you dont know the story then go ahead and listen...

Sean

myspace.com/161300169

Date:

Jun 4, 2008 9:14 AM

Subject:

cute picture

Body:

Cute family picture there Sean :),
makes me think of what could have been with you and Kyra.

I want to talk to you .. just you... no lawyers, no claws drawn out aka your wife.. just you...
speaking of her...your wife needs to stop stalking me online its really starting to make me mad. I don't know what her point is but seriously its gotta end.

I am sorry that you may be hurt that I am terminating your rights and I can understand that, but could you also understand my position too? I have bee a wonderful mother for YEARS to Kyra, and you make false accusations about me and my daughter and it did not make us break but it made our relationship stronger, and showed that you can be a unscrupulous person, and would stop at nothing to hurt me... at the expense of Kyra. I love Kyra way too much to let that happen to her.
I really wanted you relationship with Kyra to work, heck I pushed most of your encounters to happen, and did everything in my power to allow your relationship to happen without me interfering, but your wife is a very cruel woman, and turned my weaknesses into my pain. I do not know why she loathes me the way she does. and hurt me the way that she did.. I honestly thought she had become my friend.. only to learn she was setting me up to trap me in painful lies.

By cutting off rights you will no longer have to pay child support which I assumed would make you happy. but in fact your fighting that, I don't know why.. you ignored Kyra for 6 years.. why choose to want her NOW? When your rights are taken I would allow you to visit Kyra but ony to come down to cedar to see her and only with me there.I am so sad that it has to come to that, but to protect my daughter it must be that way.

She is happy and her therapies are doing well. You can see our video blog on my myspace page or on my you-tube channel. you will see she is very happy and that i really am a great mom!!
Sean I have nothing to hide, I am an honest trustworthy person that gives her all into everyone I meet and everything I have to everyone!! it is a shame you cannot see that.
Perhaps you may soften your heart as in Leviticus 19:18 "thou shalt not avenge, nor bear any grudge"
I do not feel I have done any wrong doing to you, i have done all that I could to help you have a relationship with Kyra. I do forgive you for your cruel games you have played on me however.
With this letter I am letting all of my anger and pain in regards to you fall away. It is not the Christ like thing for me to do, to keep a hard grudge-filled heart.

I hope you can understand my position and why I am going through the legalities I am. I hope in time you may forgive and forget the feelings you have towards me.

Mary Ellen

PS Kyra still has her email if you wish to email her she is a great reader now and does not need my help with anything so you can be sure I wont pry into your business. it would just be nice for her to have some contact with you.

Ok so now that you've read the letter I felt it necessary to put it on my vlog because it shows the emotion and sorrow I feel in the letter.

I will keep you posted on the whole subject...

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Family Fun Fest 2008

2008-06-04T08:13:00.000-07:00

I admit this is not a conventional blog, but its fun :) and it shows Kyra having fun at the Festival!!

Cedar's 17th and newest Festival!! Family fun fest!!

See you tomoroow guys :)

Mary Ellen

IM POOPED!!

2008-06-02T08:15:00.000-07:00

OY guys ImTIRED!! its 12:05 AM and we have been at the park ALL DAY!!! Cedar has added thier 17th festival and oyy is it a fun one!! ITs fun fun fun and games!! Bouncy houses $8 for all bouncing all week :P and games and chilli cook off today, and a Family Parade.. and the best part they top it off with a movie at the end of each day .... today was chitty chitty bang bang :) its was a great movie I cant believe Ive never seen it before.... and we meet some great people that im sure were going to make great friends :)
Well I will VLOG in the morning Im too POOPED to do it now :)

Kisses and Loves!!

Mary Ellen

THE CHEWER!!! :(

2008-06-01T08:16:00.000-07:00

OK kids Im excited about possibly doing a blog with sponsers :) I hope Chris can look into it and let me know how well it works!!
I am so sick of Glinda's chewing of the clothing!!

Welll we are off to the library :)
thanks for watching :)
Mabee I'll open it up and let you guys give me suggestions of topics for us to research every day ?

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The new Doo

2008-05-31T08:17:00.000-07:00

Hey Ya'll Sorry it has taken a few days to get a new blog up Ive been busy busy busy!!!

I hoed 5 rows of corn, and a LONG row of peas and cucumbers and IM BEAT!! my thighs havent hurt this much since I .. uhhh .. well. .....I..... Uhhhhh..... well lets keep this PG LOL hahahah
Spring has sprung and Im off to the Garage sales!! My fav's :)

see you tomorrow :) dont forget to subscribe and comment....

Kiss Kiss

Mary

ohh and isnt that a too cute pic of glinda!!

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Church and the Lake

2008-05-25T08:18:00.000-07:00

Sleep Over and BOYS

2008-05-23T08:20:00.000-07:00

This was a LONG blog mostly because Kyra had a sleepover and this is her and her 2 friends and they couldn't stay in the shot so had to keep stopping and editing LOL :P

I talk about the sleep over the girls plans for the summer and about a new guy I meet well kinda met actually I met him here on myspace so umm yeah LOL :P

there is a blooper real at the end thats pretty fun LOL

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Polygamists get thier kids back!!

2008-05-23T08:19:00.000-07:00

there are few words to say how crazy it is that the children from the YFZ ranch are being put back in thier homes!!
this does break my normal blog but I have to adress it. Yes I am LDS and I am less than an hour from Colorado City SO YES THIS DOES SOMEWHAT AFFECT ME!! I cant believe the these children are going back to their parents!

http://www.polygamy.org/contact.shtml

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Im just without words!!!

Mary Ellen

David Archuletta

2008-05-22T08:21:00.000-07:00

hahah ok So I was in such a rush to finish this blog this morning that I forgot to plug in the mic.. so i had to redo it so here you go :)
it covers quite a bit: talking about Kyra's last day of school, David Archuletta not winning American idol :( (boo hoo) , what I did today state tax sales, struggles of being fat, you know life stuff....

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Kisses
Mary Ellen

Our Wicked trip Recap!!

2008-05-20T08:23:00.000-07:00

here is our wicked Cali trip recap,
I have had alot of people ask how Cali went and I cant even type my excitment of the things I saw and People I meet!!
Watch and enjoy :)

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love ya'll

Mary Ellen

Kyra joins the blog

2008-05-19T08:24:00.000-07:00

Kyra joins the blog

Kyra had a good day at school so I told her she could do a blog with me.
All she wanted to talkabout was the trip. You can hear her crunching a candy in her teeth :P
3 more days till school is out :P

We also forgot to talk about us going to the water park today :) it was fun :)

I also talk about my job and the market.

thanks for listening
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Blogs are back up!!!

2008-05-18T08:26:00.000-07:00

hey everyone :) my blogs are back up with a new youtube account Yeahhh

I will now be posting daily so enjoy :)

Mary Ellen

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ALOT of Wicked stuff!!! More about the trip!!

2008-05-18T08:24:00.000-07:00

Hey everyone I am so excited to ge tthis blog back up and going :)
well first off I went to cali last week for what was supposed to be megan hilty's final show but she staed one more week but thats ok .. it was stil la great trip
here are some videos I took while on Vacation!!

on this last one just ignore the writing and enjoy the pictures from our vacation :P

I will write a full excitement blog all about the vaccation but right now I gotta go cause i have a meeting in an hour for work :)

BYE

Mary

OH NO YOU TUBE!!

2008-04-30T08:26:00.000-07:00

My you tube account was suspended so ALL MY VIDEOS ARE GONE .. I am pleading with them to reinstate my account so bear with me for a bit I will let you know when they are back up :)

Kisses

Mary

I thought I was done with the hospital ??

2008-04-27T08:28:00.000-07:00

its been a while since i posted. Kyra really wanted to be in the blog so she is :)
its a silly blog at first but bear with us :) its cute :P

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Kisses

Mary

I forgot the NEW dog

2008-04-18T08:32:00.000-07:00

I forgot the NEW dog

I forgot to tell you since marie's passing Kyra was VERY upset every night and would cry herself to sleep so we got her a new baby... We were offered one of Marie's daughter to be bread so we could get a grandbaby... that is the only way we'd ever get another Jack Russell again.. cause its just Marie's breed. SO I was thinking to help Kyra It would be nice to get a Yellow lab but thier just so darn big and we are in a small Apt. SO I tossed the thought around for a bit... then We got a call by a friend of mine at the dog shelter and she told me she thinks she has the PERFECT dog for me... and she was ...

Her name is Galinda (yes after wicked. we ARE obsessed)

She's half Yellow Lab and half Boarder Collie. She looks like a "mini lab" she has the bone structure, color and head shape like a Yellow Lab... and has alittle longer hair like a Boarder Collie and nose freckles like a Collie... she's super cute... so we got a lab like we wanted.. but not huge so it wont cost $1000to feed :P

She learned commands very fast and took to me and Kyra well... She was scared of doorways and wouldnt get in the car at first but she's good about it now. she even comes to my whisle comands :)

the only downside is that she has a nervous condition of submissive urinating which I cant seem to fix.. and she CANT be left alone... She has serious separation anxiety!! she ripps the house APART if she is alone.. :(

Any suggestions on fixing it??

Mary Ellen

so many Dr's visits, life update

2008-04-18T08:29:00.000-07:00

So many Dr’s visits Life update

OK so I know it has been forever since I bloged .. so sorry ...

lots has happened since my last blog...

first off I didnt get my house There were problems but they will be worked out soon and Ill retry and rebid on the house in a couple months.

Kyra and I are UNLUCKY with our health laitly!!

forst I fall off the horse (like a dumb ass) and re-injer my broken neck from when I was 18.. so I was stuck in a neck brace for passion convention... :(

then Kyra was racing a neighbor boy on his bike (she was running) and DUHH she lost... and biffed it... and got road burned her ear, and back....got a black eye and sprained the thing between the clavical and shoulder :( soooo sad :( I know so she's all gimpy...

Meanwhile the same week I was feeling crppy so I went to my Dr's office and they drew blood and I found out I have a thyroid disease. :( and the medication they gave me is making me sick.... I guess my body needs to expell all the negative things its been collecting so lets just say I'm staying close to a potty :P Ewwww...

anyhoo the upside is Im supposed to loose alot of weight now that theyre getting it under control...

Kyra started Horse ridding lessons and she's loving it . I posted pictures of her lessons and its very cool :) she loves it (she has lessons every friday) and her teacher is really good :)

I had Passion Convention and it was SOOO Fun.. and I learned alot

however sadly I was medicated for my neck so I couldn't go out partying with everyone every night :( boo hoo.. I did end up going out on the last night with some f the girls from the leading ladies team and it was way fun :) we even got invited to go play in the VIP lounge Wooo hooo :) that was fun :P My first time EVER being a VIP :) that made me feel good ;)

anyhooo thats all for right now :)

I will try to get on the webcam again :) and put up a Vlog soon :)

Love you all

Mary

RIP marie!!! Marie Video

2008-02-20T08:33:00.000-08:00

Here is a collection of pictures and video of Marie and Kyra I also put video I have of marie chasing her snowballs cause that was the last thing she did!!

I put it to music by Shoshana Bean "Home"

RIP Marie!! WE LOVE YOU!!!

2008-02-18T08:34:00.000-08:00

RIP Marie We love you!! and will miss you!!

Kyra's therapy dog Marie passed away today by stroke she was only 2 years old and it was a freek thing that happened...

Shortly before she died (like 2 hours before) she was doing her favorite thing in the world catching snowballs :)

I SO miss her and Ive been crying all afternoon and evening.

Kyra is heart broken and upset but we took her to see Prince to make her feel better and it did for a while, now that its about bedtime and she's upset again.

We will miss her SO MUCH!!!

Im Combining here

2008-01-01T08:35:00.000-08:00

*edit*

Hey guys Im combining these blogs cause the videos dont work anymore, so its pointless to Separate them.. sadly I didnt write about much I jsut relied on the blog.. Im trying to fix that now days :)

Friday, January 18, 2008

you tube misshap.

Ok guys the Log I posted earlier was supposed to be posted on my wicked page and somehow I switched the vlogs for the different myspaces (my wicked got the karma and my personal got he wicked hahah)

so THIS is the vlog on Karma!!

haahahaha

Mary

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Karma jobs and GIRLSCOUT COOKIES!!

This is short and sweet but Kyra and I have to run we have a Girlscout Cookie kickoff to get ready for!! the theme is take 5 so we have to dressup like movie stars she's so excited to wear my wig and put makeup on :)

dont forget to comment :)

Kisses

Mary

Saturday, January 12, 2008

crying durring movies

OK so we just got through watching titanic it was so cute cause Kyra came in about the middle and I told her hey your gonna cry... she said "nahh uhhh" heheh Little did she know..

From the point the ship started going under She started.. then the capitan dorwns she bawled harder, then the people were falling off the ship(whenit went vertical) she bawled Even more they went under she SOBBED!! Then she let him go under the water SHE SOBBED LIKE A BABY!! here it is 10 mins afte the movie ended and she STILL SOBBING!! LMAO just saying short phrases like "why!" Thats so sad"

I had to blog it it was PRECIOUS!!

Mary

Thursday, January 10, 2008

I forgot to put this up

I forgot to put this up I made it like 3 days ago

and here is the pots and pans banging from new years

Mysister chrissy is the first one you see with the blower on the left then my niece winter next to her my brother in law standing off to the side not doing ANY new years festivities : then my mom on the left and kyra then little robby (and alittle bit of Marie the puppy :P )

I also have another one of them popping poppers but its mostly of my niece winter being a booger so I didnt put it up :P

I should be posting a new one today :)

Mary

Tuesday, January 01, 2008

my first VLOG!!! New years

I am so proud this is my first Vlog I was so anxcious to put it up that I didnt even put on make up LOL:P hehe

ANyhoo it talks about newyears eve and Eden leaving wicked and all kinds of fun stuff...

Please enjoy :) (and comment)

Mary

Secrets and Lies

2007-12-19T08:42:00.000-08:00

Secrets and lies

It has come to my attention from an additional source that someone on my page is posing as a poor sad pregant girl and in reality is my daughter's fathers' skank ass wife Emily....

I hope you read this you looser!!

(the rest of you just get to listen and laugh at the patheticness of this woman.. hahahahah)

First off I knew it was you :P let me count the ways:

1 -your pictures on your page: seriously blue is NOT the u of u's color's you moron!! its RED!! your wearing a BLUE gown!! if you wear blue at the U they BEAT YOU UP!! hahahah and HELLO the U doesnt have comendsment speeches in little banquet rooms HAHAH

2 Hello you couldnt tell me where you were going to graduate school... and if you were.... Utah has NO ASSECT approved program here!! hahahha IDIOT!!

3 you moron I was your ONLY FRIEND!!

4 You divulged information about me that I never told you.... you used my weeknesses... stupid move cause THATS what tipped me off....

5 I knew it was you (or sean) by like the first week... because of said retarded comments

What do you REALLY feel you will GAIN from being my friend on myspace? EVERYONE KNOWS I'M AN OPEN BOOK!! I HAVE NO SECRETS and I HIDE NOTHING!!! ... My lawyer will be notified tomorrow and he will get the ISP in which your account was made thus connecting it to your computer... and will make you look like an ASS in court!!

If you've read carefully MY DAUGHTER IS MY LIFE!!!! I love her and wont do things just out of spite!! I do things to PROTECT HER and for her BEST interest!! You know ... youve been reading my blogs!!

If your REALLY smart dont bother even showing up you know as much as I do that your not gonna win shit cause your garbage to Kyra!! You know deep in your heart that what you have done to MY sweet little girl is WRONG!! you cant honestly think that she DESERVES the crap that you put her through last year!!! DONOT continue hurting her... her therapy is doing very well right now... dont disterb her life just to fuck it up again!!!! if you do than you truely are a CRUEL MONSTER!!

speeking of the slut.... you get her knocked up again so you can have more welfare money ? treat your children like cattle and heard them around when you cant even FEED THEM . USE and abuse the church that you dont even care about so that THEY can support them and you get some MYSTERIOUS damn disease that has been proven doctor after doctor that your FINE!!! just so you can wiggle out of child support .... thats a man right there!! (hahaha)

Why did I let you remain my friend on myspace for so long? .. simple I hide NOTHING... may the truth set you FREE!! I lie about nothing and everyone knows my word to be honesty!! you on the other hand have you and.. um ... you .... hahaha and the looser that lives in your basment like a creepy uncle LOL

I have evidence proving your ISP and we will link "her" to your Computer ....

hahaha your an IDIOT!!!

Mary

Horse sense :P

2007-12-11T08:43:00.000-08:00

Horse Sence :P

OK so we have been busy busy busy :)

We are jsust so greatful laitly... We were donated a therapy horse for Kyra, we were donated a Corral ;) (amazing!! cause their like GOLD here!!) I meet a great couple people that have been great in helping me with getting the place ready for the horse :)

I also found a great website for saddles and tack :) Kyra's getting this way cute saddle :)

so cute huh ?

anyhoo hopelly we get the horse saturday :) if it doesnt snow us out again :P

Kisses

Mary

SNOW!!!!

2007-12-07T08:44:00.000-08:00

Snow!!!!

yeahh so I mso freeking excited. we got snow last night :) yeahahhh

Kyra had a sleep over with her best friend Gabby last night... they went to sleep after me (i tried staying up with htem but I ended up going to bed at 11 :P .. and then they woke up Before 6am!! What were those little monkies thinking LOL :P Of coarse they got up got dressed and ran around outside to play in the snow :P then ran inside wet and cold haha Can we say Make me oatmeal to make me warm :)

Tonight we were going to go to the winter light parade (sundown cedar city tradition!!) but I think its canceled cause of the snow :( boo hoo... usually every year we go and its freezing cold we put on 3 layers of clothes scarfes hats blankets (heck even one year I had a hot water bottle LOL) and we snuggle with our hot chocolate and watch the parade. Cedar somehow gets a hold of the light parade from disneyland (how the heck do they work that? I dunno but its AWSOME)

We are also going to see the forgotten carols :) yehahhhhh

im so excited!! I went to go get tickets yesterday.. and it was sold out.. I called The conductor (my bud Bro. MAc) and begged him to find me some .. and he did YEAHhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!

yet again this a tradition... Ive gone to forgotten carols every year since 2004 :) (the year we moved to utah) and will always go every year :)

last night there was a ward christmas party.. that was fun :)

anyhooo theres my day :)

what are your traditions?

Mary

I should be feeling happy....

2007-11-29T08:45:00.000-08:00

OK so I should be feeling happy right now but IM not....

First off I TOTALLY enjoyed my sister being here!! she was really great and we talked quite a bit in some extreme detail of some events that explain alot in my life.... especially why my father hates me (candice shut up, you know he treats me differently!!) I have already done the therapy thing, and got over my father issues, heck I even have within the past year began to mend me and my father relationship (see I gave him credit) but now with this new information I am disturbed, grateful, and sad all in one... disturbed for what occured the night I was born, Grateful that I finally know the true truth, and sad because it wasted so much time of hate between my sister, my father and I .... but I do feel it puts certain things to rest for me, which makes me at piece... I think I can see the perspective of all parties and know my position on them all ...

ON a happier note.. I MOVED BACK TO MY HOME APT!!! YEAHHhhhhhhhhhhh!!!

Im so happy to be back ! I moved on monday and have been hurriedly putting things away to get back to normal... I did notice when I moved i got rid of ALOT OF STUFF!!! so in retrospect it was a blessing to get rid of junk I dont need!! and I have a fresh apartment ... see Im looking at the positive :)

I still dont have my fridge moved back yet though (It should be moved tomorrow) I have the hall pantry, bathroom, and some of the kitchen, some dining room and most of the living room put back together!! only my room and Kyra's to go.. and a few more boxs in the other rooms!! soo yeah my life is coming back to normal!! I just better not get all settled and have to move!! LOL

Business has been doing GREAT :) I have tons of parties booked and all of the parties so far have been really successful, and my team are doing great this month, they have more than $6000 In sales!!! GOOD JOB GIRLS!!!

This weekend Im gonna be going to the city lights parade in cedar :) tradition around unless its snowing!!

and then We'll be going to the forgotten carols :)

if you haven't seen or heard it its FABULOUS!!

I gotta get to bed, I am glad I have been trying to keep my promise of posting a blog a week (I was trying to do it daily)

Anyhooo

LOve ya'll

MAry

NO VOICE!

2007-11-11T08:48:00.000-08:00

OK so I havent posted laitly and I feel I need to!

first off I woke up htis morning and Ihave NO VOICE! Ahhhh

Its driving me nuts... as many of you know im a TALKER!... and having no form of communication KILLS ME!! it is very funny to kyra cause I have tried to yell at her this morning and she laughed at me cause I sound like a mouse squeeek squeeek squeeking !! hahah

I had a killer party last night and I needed to follow up with a couple customers and I strained so much that I can feel PAIN in my lungs!! Ahhhhhh OK Ill get off this toppic now LOL

OK solife has been sucking for me laitly.. Ill start at the beginning

No more working at walmart.. im a jobless looser

I am a Grad school reject... what do I do NOW?

I cant pass the social worker test... frustrating!

I get home from a job interview in salt lake and my apartment gets flooded so i had to move out of my apartment for a month or so (might be back this next weekend though :) yeahh.. however I gotta move all my crap AGAIN...*sigh* )

Im feeling a change.....

My biz has been picking up which is great im part because of the great biz I got from the What women want expo.. :) yeahh ....
THEN I had a party on wed that seriously WOW... Ok so I show Up I do the party . it was decently good sales.. but then IM packing up and these ladies are having a spiritual conversation (which normally gives me the "oh jesus *roll-eye*" feeling.. but this was different.. so I listened engaged myself and we sat and talked for HOURS!! then one of the ladies had me take this CD set which is based off a book GO GET IT!! Dr. Wayne W. Dyer "Inspiration your ultimate Calling"

Now ya'll know Im not a churchy churchy girl.... Im usually quite the opposite.. but this is increadible! I seriously sobbed my whole way home listening to it!! Amazing!!
I feel more spiritual at this very moment than I have in a LONG LONG lONG time!!

WOW...

OK so theres my update

Ill try to keep you posted!

(ohh and the V-blogs should get started soon.. were gettinga new computer that will have a camera built in so I hope it works well for it)

Kisses

Mary

MOVING AGAIN ok well back...

2007-11-02T08:47:00.000-07:00

OK so Im keeping my promise to blog so here it goes:)

Well first Im soooooo happy Im gonna be able to move to my old APT this weekend YEAH!!*happy dance* .... I love being in my little corner space .. I cant wait to be back home again :)

Also I have another interview with Workforce services to be an eligibility specialist so Im so excited about it!! I willbe doing a mockinterview with a guy in the employment center to help me review for questions so I can do the VERY VERY best I can! yeahhhhh

so today I need to finish packing (again for the 2nd time) in preperation for moving..

Oh and my sister Kathy is comming to visit for thanksgiving. i havent seen her since Iwas pregnant with Kyra so its been a while :) honestly I dont have much of a connection or friendship with her... she acts too much like she's my mom... well for good reason she's 45!! LOL and her daughter is a couple years younger than me... im more bummed she's not brining Rachel with her Hahaha

OK well I gotta get moving for the day :)

what are you doing for thanksgiving? write it below in the comments :)

see you tomorrow :)

Mary

So Im a Graduate

2007-05-05T08:50:00.000-07:00

So Im a Graduate

OK so now im an offical "college graduate" what do i do now with my life?

Im going to graduate school to get my therapist licenure for mental health counceling- yeah... I am thinking i might work for the state or someting for the time being.

I am not going to chicago as originally planned due to the current issues with the ex.. *sigh* another way he can F-up my life!!

i digress.. this is about ME!! ... loL

anyhooo... so yeah.. not much else to say really...

Mary

CRAZY LIFE!!!

2007-02-07T08:51:00.000-08:00

Ok so some crazy stuff has been happening in my life.
Ok #1:
ya'll remember when I tried out for the biggest looser this summer, I got a call back yada yada yada. and didnt hear from them. well in January I got an email saying they loved me and that they want more info and to send in another video and I'd know if I got on by the end of jan. so i did. then on Friday I got a call saying that they had "set backs" and that they will let me know by mid-end march. *sigh* Im SOO excited. however Im sooo nervous at the same time!!

#2 my best friend, and ex fiance, wants to get back with me. I know some people may object (namely candice) but i do love him, and I've grown very close to him.. who knows...

#3 School is kickn ass I have some serious senioritus though. cant wait to be done

#4 I have become a team manager in Passion parties Im SO freeking stoked!! I am gonna get soo many awards at convention in March its not even funny!!

I am a such a busy bee laitly

Mary Ellen

Oh yeah and you can view my entry video on my myspace. I did make one error on there, I got wrapped up in the cancer scenario (with my grandmother, aunt, mother etc) and said my sister had breast cancer.. not true.. it was an ovarian issue, thus ending in a hysterectomy.. :P just some clarification there :P

OK soooo Wierd!!!

2006-10-05T08:54:00.000-07:00

October 05, 2006

OK soooo Wierd!!!

Does anyone but me find it weird I just spent a good hour on the phone with my ex's wife (kyra's step mother) just talking as if she was my best friend??

As if you care but we dicussed Kyra's visitation this weekend (which is where the call started) onto scrapbooking (and if you know me at all. thats BIG) and talking about random relationship crap.. (hello we have had sex with the same man, and both produced children by him what was I thinking on that one :P ) and the rest was just random crap.

Ohhh FYI.. Kyra's visiting her dad again this weekend (thus the phone call) , my friend Josh is taking her up there :) Im kinda glad cause I have st. george and Page AZ parties this weekend.. I love this whole, "im buzy this weekend, take her" thing I can do now :) yeah .. its so convenient having 2 parents around.
Mary

Graduation!! yeah!!!!

2006-09-29T08:57:00.000-07:00

Friday, September 29, 2006

Graduation!! yeah!!!!

Yeah everyone :) im GRADUATING FINALLY.... BS in Psychology minor in Communications..

I graduate in the spring.. so I have to start filling out my graduation papwerwork, and looking at grad schools.. UGgg...I am looking at one out in Chicago.. its SO FAR AWAY! I wouldn't be anywhere near my family... well I'd be around my dad's family.. which is as good as strangers... I never remember ever visiting them. (though I did when I was like 4ish) ...

however Chris is like 2 hours away in Wisconsin.. which is a very good friend... (and ex fiance :P) so I guess I have a friend and "family".. but its not the same as here in utah.. where my sisters are so close to me.. My mom is so close to me.. so is my dad, but he doesnt really count, cause he doesnt see me, unless it is for "have to" reasons...like my wedding...cause it was at his house...

I really want to enrich that relationship with him.. I have tried.. but its kind of a pointless thing. he doesnt care, and it does nothng for him.. which upsets me...

anyway I digress...

I also have a program in san bernardino (where I grew up) that I am interested in.. then again... it would be EXPENSIVE... and I moved from CA because of the violence.. but HELLO my other option is CHICAGO....

I dotn know what Im gonna do...

what do you think?

Mary

Graduation!! yeah!!!!

2006-09-29T08:55:00.000-07:00

Graduation!! yeah!!!!

Yeah everyone :) im GRADUATING FINALLY.... BS in Psychology minor in Communications..

I graduate in the spring.. so I have to start filling out my graduation papwerwork, and looking at grad schools.. ....

I dont know what Im gonna do...

what do you think?

Mary

Passion Parties Website

2006-09-14T09:02:00.001-07:00

My new Passion website

Hey everyone,

You can now order products on my website.

www.maryellenspassion.com

tell me you saw it on my myspace and you'll get free shipping!!

Kisses,

Mary

Passion Parties Website

2006-09-14T09:02:00.000-07:00

My new Passion website

Hey everyone,

You can now order products on my website.

www.maryellenspassion.com

tell me you saw it on my myspace and you'll get free shipping!!

Kisses,

Mary

What the HELL????

2006-09-05T09:03:00.000-07:00

OK I'm mad.. a few things have happened this week I'll talk about but this first one is burning my chest out!!

#1 Kyra's dad.. the ass hole returns...

OK so if you all have been attentively reading my blogs you'll know Im trying to get Kyra's dad rekindled into her life...

I know he need some time to adjust to being her fathr blah blahb lbah (I dont really think so but everyone seems to think so) but Ok the man has bbe in her life for a month now and remaining to be an ass hole!! He is supposed to call her every tues night at 8:30 .. and not ONCE has he done it on time or at all period!!

tonight I called himto remind his moronic ass to call her, and he acted totally anoyed that he had to tak to her. ARG that pisses me off...

He tells her he went to Las vegas this weekend and he got home last night and that he's gonna call her back "sometime" this week... blah blah blah WTF!!!!! for those f you that dont know about the location of cedar city.. it is 2 hours north of Las vegas and 3 hours south of salt lake.. you must PASS THROUGH ONE TO GET TO THE OTHER! he came through HER CITY not ONCE but TWICE .. and didnt Fucking stop to see her!!!! What a dim shit..

And she knows that we are in the middle of vegas and salt lake because we drive it often .. and he TOLD HER.. and she even said to him why didn't you stop? he replied I dont know it was kinda late ..

If you had an astranged daughter, wouldnt you plan your travel to go through your DAUGHTERS TOWN at a decent hour so you could SEE HER!!! seeing as how its not like OUT OF THE FUCKING WAY!!!

Arg... I sent him a letter after I got off the phone with him.. I hung up on him I was so angry... this is what it said :

Sean,

I have been very civil, and have bit my tongue but I can no longer sit back and have you break my daughter's heart.

She deserves a father that will talk to her any time she needs, not just on one night a week, for mabee 5-10 minutes!

which by the way you have never called on time... putting her schedule behind!!!

She deserves more than a sometimes father.. you claim your children need you.. well your daughter KYRA needs you just as much as they do. It shows a lack of compassion, a lack of concern, and lack of love for your daughter when you DRIVE THROUGH OUR TOWN and dont stop in to see her!!!

If you spend all of your money you have to go to Las Vegas that is not mine or your daughter's fault. You should have thought that perhaps I shouldnt be the only on to pay for the trips to visit you!! and I covered the cost to salt lake the first time, I came a day earlier so you could have one on one time with her, I took many pictures to commemorate your time with her... and you did nothing.. you didnt even so much as get her a dollar store toy!! I understand not having any money but common.. you could have gave her a stuffed animal from a garage sale for all she cared!!

It hurts me that I see my daughter hurt... It hurts her!! and she has tried to call you many times, she wants to talk to you and terra and all of her sisters and brothers! ... you wont even call back.

Quit hurting her and hurting her feelings..

she is your daughter.. ACT LIKE HER FATHER

After she saw you and the kids she was so excited to have a daddy. however her daddy is having fun and playing with her sisters and brothers every day, and she doesnt even get a hi ... its wrong sean.. and you know it!!

you tell me you have such conviction for your family, PROVE IT ... by being a father that you have never been to her!!

CALL ON TIME AND ANSWER HER WHEN SHE CALLS!!!

I will only talk to you when you need to be talked to. For instance if theres a trip to salt lake, I need help with getting there etc. from now on all costs to drive to salt lake will be shared or you wont see her. Im sorry I have to be harsh but you havent paid anything for her to see you, you need to help!

I am NOT sorry for blowing up today on the phone... you deserved to know that it is not right to treat your daughter that way.

and if you feel that not calling hurts me.. it doesn't.....IT HURTS HER.. do you REALLY want to hurt HER for OUR issues?

Heck Email her, I have a webcam, I can hook it up to her computer, and you could webcam back and fourth with her and her sisters, she needs you.. dont punish her for our issues sean.. its not right...

We need to push back the time you call her, if you still insist on only tues nights.. Kyra needs to be in bed by 8:30 and its just to late for her to be up, and waiting for the ohone to ring. Please call at 7:30.. so I have time to get her ready for bed after you get off the phone.

Please try to call her more than that. SHE NEEDS YOU!! DONT FAIL HER!!

Mary

How do you think I might have done it differently? to show him the upset and hurt he places on his daughter.. and at the same time showing him that she needs him to be there for her?

#2 mammogram update:

OK so I got the mamo done.. it showed nothing however they still will probably needle biopsy it because it hurts and its a palpable lump. My Dr. doesnt return to work till next week so I'll have to talk to her when she gets back. Uggg...

#3 School burn out so soon...

OK I dont know what the deal is but Im already 2 weeks into school and I am SOO ready to be DONE.. OY I already have a paper due tomorrow, and a test on friday!!

#4.. MEN OY .....

My favorite subject Penis's ok so Im trying to with hold from having sex again (sorry guys) and its really frustrating.. but I can hold out .. I've made it a whole year before I can do it again!! hopefully long enough to have a husband LOL YEAH .. I have gone 7 weeks with no sex YAHHOOOOO Ill keep strong this time!!

OK so a crazy random thing.. I had a seriously like wow dream last night about a classmate of mine.. I woke up in a flittery pitty patty heart beat.. and couldnt stop thinking about him all day!! I am so happy I see him tomorrow In class.. *pant pant* I hope I dont drool sitting next to him *sniff* note to self.. wear deodorant LOL

theres my rants for the week ...

Kisses all ..

Mary

The breast sagga continues

2006-08-31T09:07:00.000-07:00

the breast sagga continues
Current mood: nervous

OK so everyone remember last years drama with the breast??

(if you dont read about it) theres also a pic of the boob on my myspace :P

anyway...

so I went to the DR's office today cause I have anothe lump.. I thought I only had one.. my Dr found another one.. so i have 2 new lumps that are most likely gonna have to be disected out of me again...

but first things first..

I have to have a mamogram done tomorrow (really quite soon dont you think?? that scares me)

not like Im not familiar with mamo's.. seing as how Im 25 and ive had 4 done.. and generally you dont get them till your 40ish...

wish me luck.. the saga continues...

Du du dummmm

Mary

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Kyra's dad
Current mood: hopeful

Ok so Kyra had a blast visiting her dad.. she more enjoyed being with her sisters and brothers.. she didnt really much care about her dad.. she was more focused on her 1 half brother 2 half sisters, and one boy and girl step siblings.

Her one sister Terra was her favortie sister.. according to Emily (her step mom) the girls were attached at the hip.

I took 4 rolls of film of all of them together.. so Im hoping they turn out well so I can scrap book a nice amount of the pictures.

she's going back up in 3 weeks so I hope it is gonna remain good times ;)

Mary

Sean (the ex) continued

2006-08-08T09:09:00.000-07:00

Sean (the ex) continued
Current mood: optimistic

Ok so i have a party in salt lake in like 3 weekends, so i called my ex, and asked him if he'd like to see Kyra while Im up there. He said yes, and we had a decent conversation. He even talked with kyra for a good 15 mins.. and actually pretended to care!!!

I dont know whats gonna happen now...

Mabee this week he has thought about her and wants something to do with her???

Kyra's excited but Im hesitant...

Mary

WEEK FROM HELLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL

2006-08-04T09:10:00.000-07:00

OK let me start this week off with a WOW .. OK ..

brace yourselves this is a LONG story however it ends happily :) so bear with it.

OK so Monday I talked to my ex in court (this mind you was the FIRST TIME I had talked to him since June of 2000... 6 freeking years!!! when I was 5 months pregnant and he left me for a married woman..) We share a child.. how ever I have a daughter.. and he is an ass.. and showed it in court.

I somehow finagled his phone number out of him and asked him if our daughter could call him since he has not uttered one living breathing work to her ..

I got home from court and she called him.. this was their conversation (I heard it cause she was on speaker Phone):

Kyra: hi im kyra youre my daddy , my mom's making me mini mouse pan cakes do you like Minnie mouse pancakes"

JERK: NO.. (sounded bored, and annoyed)

Kyra: I love minnie mouse, we went to Disneyland this year for spring break, have you ever ben to Disneyland?

JERK : NO (still annoyed and sounding impatient)

Kyra: I went in the haunted house it was scary and fun and it stopped in the middle when we were on it....

JERK: Oh.. (sigh even MORE BORED )

Kyra: Ok heres my mom (she walked away UPSET!!!!)

AHHH how dare he that jerk that BUTTFACE THAT IDIOT.. HOW CAN HE TREAT MY DAUGHTER that way !!!!

OK so he basically said I still want nothing to do with her and cant we keep it as him not existing to her?

SO that was just freeking fantabulous!! .. then my dad calls and starts DEFENDING SEAN!!!! grr.. it instilled why I hate him .. anyway I digress...

SO the next day (the first) was my b-day.. which my mom is out of town, my sister is moving, and Im a looser and upset ver my ex thing on Monday.. so It wasnt a good b-day.. however my sister did try to make me feel better by baking me a cake and making me dinner :) ( thanks Chrissy) that made me feel better...

the next morning the police were at my apartment, arresting 3 people, taking 3 to juvi, and citing 15 people from the neighbor's house upstairs.. soo ugg.. no sleep that night..

and I got a sty in my eye from all the stress...

Thursday my hostess from Friday did bring me her guest list (first time ever filled totally out.. WITH 67 NAMES AND NUMBERS!!!! ) however.. I got a call from the DA telling me that my perpetrator (there was a rape in Dec) was being sentenced on Monday.. which "brightened my day" NOT .... And I also had to over night a tape for "the biggest looser" to one of the casting agents (I am in the 4th stage of being picked IM SO EXCITED!! Ill KEEP YOU POSTED ON THAT) Ohhhh and I got in a car accident 3 weeks ago.. and I found out today the chic didnt have insurance her husband canceled it on the 10th and the accident was on the 17th... GRR..... and I have LIABILITY ONLY !!!!! AHhhhhhhhhh

anyway

so I called everyone on the list on Thursday... and I got 2 booked parties YEAH.... before the party even happened... I saw it was turning brighter ;)

OK so I went through all 67 names and numbers....

then spent the rest of the evening cuddling in the covers with my daughter reading almost 50 books to her .. it was exhausting but oh so good and fun ... bonding with the young'n... ahhh :)

so I woke this morning .. not sure WHAT THE DAY WOULD BRING SEEING AS HOW MY WEEK HAS BEEN A ROLLER COASTER...

I had booked a play date for my daughter. with some lady I had meet on a yahoo group for playdates.. she was fun and fabulous...and our kids got along great then I told her about how awesome my job was.. she nearly flipped her wig when she found out I was a PP consultant... She was so excited... She apparently had parties every 2nd Tues. in CA with her friends... and loved it and misses it... and I told her about the opportunity to become a hostess and the need here for it.. and she jumped on it.. and she's gonna sign to be a consultant YEAH!!! (my day is LOOKING UP)

I called my hostess she was totally excited about the party... and it went perfect.. filled her little 350 sq ft apartment 15 people full. they were EVERYWHERE..

however at the smoke break we have VERY BORED COPS in cedar city.. and they stopped where 2 of the girls that were smoking... and in Utah the legal smoking age is 19.. and they were 18 ..

yeah that was fun... hahahah

ok so on to the toy demo.. went well..

Party sales were $700 and booked another 3 parties... so a total on 5 .. and Im a happy gal....

Damn this week nearly drove me to drink'n LOL my back hurts my knees hurt, my feet hurt.. heck my boobs hurt...

Dramatic week...

Im going to bed. Its 2 AM ...

Mary

Gross story BEWARE!!!

2006-04-17T09:12:00.000-07:00

April 17, 2006

Yet another ER trip

Ok so whats with me and the ER.... GOD IM SICK OF BEING SICK....

Good freeking LORD... LOL

I have to tell this story cause its hillariously sad... and GROOSSSSS truely borderlines T M I .. but I have to tell the beginning...

OK so I was at my friends house we (her, her husband and Kyra) were going to Applebees... so as we were waiting for her to get ready.. and me and brian were sitting in the livingroom talking... and I was like I gotta go to the bathroom (he had diareah earlier) so I was giving himcrap like he gave it to me.. HAHA.. then he said he had to go too... (ahhhhh ow sweet we were bonding in our diareah LOL) so anyway ... I went to the bathroom and bled out so bad I had to go to the hospital.. long story short after many tests and a HUGE IV bruise.. anyway... so I have really bad coalitus... A disease that my grandmother had Ironically she is my name sake... Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh....

OK I told you might have been TMI for you .. but it had to betold.. LOL HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHAHA

Mary

HOLY CRAP MY BACK!!!!!!!!!!!

2006-04-03T09:13:00.000-07:00

April 03, 2006

Current mood: uncomfortable

Oh my gosh, so Monday I woke up, forgetting it was daylight savings, and I rushed my daughter out of bed, and went barreling through my newly clean clothes (I did the day before, just havent put them away yet.. FYI I suck at that) I put the laundry basket on my bed to sift through it easier AND DHOO MY HELLLLLLLLL PAAIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIINNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNI laaid on my bed thinking it would go away. I waited about 20 mins, and if anything it got worse as time went on. OH MY GOSH I WAS DYING.... It was darn well near the pain of child birth... on a scale of 1-10 it was a 25 ...

so finallly I give in and call my sister (who recently moved here from salt lake) telling her about it... she called 911.. and got perametics over.. and if any of you know my well.. Im almost always nude at my house.. so somehow I had my daughter help me get some panties and a shirt on LOL.. in case it was a total male crew... fortunatly for me it was a totally female crew..

They gave me happy happy drugs AKA morphine.... made it tone down to a 8-9 I was stilldying when they moved me onto the stretcher, oh my heck that hurt.

OK so i got to the hospital the EMT that was working on shift was really sweet.. sadly he had a ring (DAMNIT) but my RN was a BITCH... she was very rude

Anyway Im on good happy pills at home... HEHE

Im still in pain just not as badly...

Muah

Mary

Guys.. OYyyyyy....

2006-03-02T09:16:00.000-08:00

OK so seriously, guys are annoying me right now. I have like 3 guys that I'm very into... and I have a feeling they MIGHT be into me, not sure if thier just being nice or are really into me... however.. one problem... I DONT TELL THEM... Im afraid if screwing up our friendship.. uggg *sigh* ... however I have all 3 of them on my my space.. can you identify them ??

LOL

heres a hint.... 1/2 the men on my myspace are gay...

Im such a spazzz

Anyway back to the boys, I really want one of them, but he has NO CLUE AT ALL.. and I cant figure out how to make that transition, cause he does have some sort of "power" over me. Which could make it wierd... if he doesnt like me.

am I being dumb and just acting like a teanager drama queen or am I just being oh so passive agressive?

Mary

PS.. I found out today one of these guys no longer has a GF.. should I make the pounce ? or give him some recovery time ???

PSS if you think your one of the guys let me know if YOU are interested :) LOL :P

MY NEW JOB ROCKS

2006-02-07T09:18:00.000-08:00

February 07, 2006

MY NEW JOB ROCKS

OK if you guys havent already hurd about my new job .. listen closely :)

It is SO AWSOME :)

I am a Consultant for passion parties :)

I get to have a great time telling parties of people about sex, intamacy,, and how to increase the passion in your love life :) I LOVE MAKING PEOPLE HAPPY :)

Go look at my

Come to a prty or even host one :) my first 3 host's will get a special prize :)

You get great free stuff :) more people that you think love going to these things :)
and if your too shy to come to a party, I can show you a catalog or something sometime :)

Let me know :)

you can email me and call me too if you want :)

DONT EAT 5 CLOVES OF ROASTED GARLIC

2006-01-01T09:23:00.000-08:00

DONT EAT 5 CLOVES OF ROASTED GARLIC
Current mood: smelly

OK, so i kinda went crazy and ate 5 whole BULBS of garlic (cause its YUMMY roasted yumm yumm yumm) anyway... and my friend woudn't come near me LOL
they couldnt take my breath so much that they stuck thier heads out of the car (in 9 degree weather no doubt)

AND THEN... it gave me stinky stinky gas.... SO DONT DO IT :)

(if that last one was TMI it was purely for informational "never do it" purposes)

Husband moving to town Ugggg.......

2006-01-01T09:21:00.000-08:00

Husband moving to town Ugggg.......

OK so seriously, my soon to be ex husband is moving totown.. he mentioned he MAY move back, but yesterday he suddenly calls and says he's gonna need a ride from the buss drop off to his new appartment.. I was like "What are you TALKING ABOUT ?? " Im not upset about it... It was just sudden. Am very porud of him for getting an apartment on his own, and planning the move all on his own. He usually asks me for help at some point.. I guess I just kinda feel left out HAHA :)

anyway.. it will be wierd having him around again ...

FYI.. we are NOT getting back together.... we are keeping it "just friends"

Mary

Fat chicks and the OPEN discrimination

2006-01-01T09:19:00.000-08:00

January 01, 2006

Fat chicks and the OPEN discrimination
Current mood: enraged

This article really cuts to my heart.. You all know im overweight and I see this on a daily basis .. this truely makes me feel more secure knowing that this information is known.... I know it is long, but it really shows MY side of life.. which sucks sometimes.. eventhough Im comfortable with my weight :)

Love you all ...

Mary

Marie Claire Investigation: Why America Hates Fat Women

For years, Americans have spoken out against racism, sexism, and homophobia, but it seems fat is the final frontier: the only thing it’s still acceptable to be openly prejudiced about. Employers pay overweight workers less, insurance companies deny health coverage, and some airlines won’t fly “extra-large” patrons unless they pay for two seats. Fat-bashing runs rampant, and it’s women who are bearing the brunt. But why is it OK to treat anyone who weighs more as less than human? Marie Claire investigates.

By Dana Hudepohl

Where Are Fat Women Feeling The Prejudice?

On Shopping Sprees
A Rice University study found that retail salesclerks do discriminate against obese shoppers. When 10 women wore a prosthesis that made them appear to be a size 22 instead of their normal size, they reported less eye contact, more rudeness, and overt hostility. The only time they faced less discrimination? When the clerks thought the women were trying to lose weight, since they were carrying a diet cola as opposed to an ice cream drink.

On The Job
Researchers at Memphis State University have found that employers are less likely to hire a fat person. And once she lands a job, she will face more discrimination: A recent study in the American Journal of Public Health found that fat women are paid 30 percent less than average-size women – and that’s on top of women already getting paid less than men.

At The Doctor
A Yale University study showed that family doctors and nurses, and even health professionals who specialize in treating obesity, have an anti-fat bias. The researchers also found that obese women often delay breast-cancer screenings, Pap smears, and gynecological exams – and 12 percent of women delay or cancel doctor’s appointments – due to weight concerns.

In Magazines
A recent issue of England’s Maxim magazine ran an article called “How To Pleasure A Fattie – And Live.” Instructions include: “Regularly check she isn’t having trouble breathing under her own weight. Afterward, towel yourself off and make her a snack.”

On A Date
According to a study at the University of Liverpool in England, a man photographed with a fat date is rated 22 percent more negatively (described as miserable, passive, depressed, weak, unattractive, and insecure) than when the same man is pictured with a thin woman by his side.

The Cult of Sweathogging
“Sweathogging,” a dating trend popular on college campuses from Minnesota to Maryland, involves a group of male buddies who head to the bars to zero in on fat girls, whom they call “pigs” or “hogs.” Their thinking: Fat women are so desperate, they guys will be able to score easy one-night stands. The bigger the target, the more “respect” the guys get from friends. “They don’t see fat people as people at all, but as the bottom of the barrel,” says Paul McAleer, creator of Big Fat Blog (www.bigfatblog.com), an online community that advances fat acceptance. One sweathogging frat rat reported to Cleveland Scene, a weekly newspaper, that he and his pals had created a $1400 pot. At the end of the year, the guy who’d scored with the fattest girl won. And we call these institutions of higher education?

The Bridget Jones Paradox
Renee Zellweger shot to fame playing the beloved everywoman. Yet, when she plumped up to play Bridget Jones, columnists mocked her physique. One high-fashion magazine (not Marie Claire) booker her for its cover then refused to run the “fat” photos, only to apologize afterward. Why do we obsess over Zellweger’s yo-yoing? In short, it makes us nervous. “There’s an idea that fatness is something we can change,” says Eric Oliver, author of Fat Politics: The Real Story Behind America’s Obesity Epidemic.” But evidence suggests our bodies hover within a particular, genetically predetermined range.

The “Cute” Fat Suit
Hollywood trots out the fat suit for laughs at least once a year. Monica donned it on Friends, Gwyneth shimmied into it for Shallow Hal, and recently, supermodel Tyra Banks packed on 350 pounds of fat suit on her self-titled talk show. Her goal? To discover how obese people are treated. “Within 10 seconds, a trio of people looked at me … and started pointing and laughing in my face,” she told the AP. Banks, for one, was convinced: Obesity “seemed like the last form of open discrimination,” she said. However, not all fat people appreciated Banks’ efforts to further their cause. “If you wear a fat suit, you don’t know how fat people are treated. You know how people in fat suits are treated,” read one post on bigfatblog.com in reaction to the stunt. “I wonder whether people will accept her report of ‘how fat people are treated.’ She’s not truly fat; she just plays one on TV!” countered another. But the awareness itself is a start, says Paul Campos, a law professor at the University of Colorado and author of The Obesity Myth. “Hollywood in the 1930s focused on the black face,” he says. “The popularity of the fat suit is proof that Americans are starting to realize there’s something deeply problematic with our obsession with weight.”

Fat For Fun And Profit?
In 2004, NBC launched The Biggest Loser, bringing obesity into the reality-TV spotlight, as overweight contestants competed to drop pounds. The ratings were so high – 9.9 million people tuned in to the premiere – that a second season was quickly green-lighted. “Viewers haven’t seen characters like this before,” one of the executive producers has said. “We went for the heart,” added another. Or was it the gut – and belly laughs at the characters’ expense? “When fat people appear on the screen at all, we’re not the hero,
we’re not the romantic lead; we’re the joke or sidekick,” says Marilyn Wann, a civil-rights activist and author of Fat!So? “People ‘learn’ that that’s OK.”

Fat Stats You Need To Know: Recent Studies Reveal Harsh Realities

3% of the major female characters on TV were obese, compared to one in four real American women.

Seven times as many women as men have had gastric-bypass surgery, although woman are only an eighth more likely to be obese.

One third of the women on television are dangerously underweight.

Fat women on TV are twice as likely to be the target of jokes and are less likely to interact with romantic partners or display physical affection.

24% of nurses have said they are repulsed by obese people.

Parents provide less college support for their overweight children than their thin children.

28% of teachers in a Yale University survey said yes when asked whether becoming obese was one of the worst things that could happen to a person.

What YOU Can Do
The biggest reason fat people are still targets of prejudice is that Americans are taught to believe that being overweight is purely lack of discipline. You can change that. Speak up: Say something the next time you witness something that reinforces fat prejudice – be it a joke, an advertisement, or anything else. When a sportswear store in Los Angeles ran an offensive billboard, a concerned citizen contacted the International Size Acceptance Association. “We posted a picture on our Web page, and the billboard was down in three days,” says Allen Steadham, the organization’s founder and director. “Where you get the most mobilization is from the average person.”

The Anti-Fat Backlash
Here, how the overweight are getting seen – and heard

F.A.T.A.S.S.
The Fat Action Troupe AllStar Spirit Squad is a group of fat cheerleaders who cheer, dance, laugh, and have fun – all while getting across a message of loving your body and fighting body-image prejudice. (www.fatasspdx.com)

Padded Lilies
A troupe of fat synchronized swimmers promoting a message of body acceptance, fat empowerment, and fitness at any size. (www.paddedlilies.com)

Big Burlesque
Known as The Original Fat-Bottomed Revue, this group of fat artists and activists performs around the country to show the sexy side of fat. (www.bigburlesque.com)

Targeting Children: A Fat Report Card?
Everyone knows a fat kid who was teased in school; Bill Clinton and Isaac Mizrahi were two. Now, new laws passed in Arkansas and Texas (and proposed in New York and Georgia) require schools to print a child’s weight on his or her report card. By doing that, says Campos, “[You’re telling a 10-year-old girl] that the most important thing about her is not whether she’s doing well in science, math, or history, but whether she can conform to a repressive body ideal.”

A Pregnant Pause?
So deep is our fear of being perceived as fat, even weight gained naturally during pregnancy is contentious. Now, the nine months when we should be celebrating our curves can become the battle of the bulge. Scared of packing on too many pounds, some expecting moms exercise so often they endanger their babies. “The fear of weight gain during pregnancy is rampant,” says Saguy. “People might not say anything about what a great mother you are, but if they see you’ve lost your pregnancy weight quickly, that draws compliments.” Hollywood doesn’t help: Images of celebrity moms further distort the idea of how quickly baby weight should be shed. “As an actress, your job is your body, and you can put in eight hours a day into looking a certain way,” says Sandy Shaffer, president of the New York City chapter of NAAFA, the National Association to Advance Fat Acceptance. “This is not reality.”

Fat Chance!
Even though the overweight and obese outnumber thin Americans, our courts do little to cushion them from prejudice. No federal laws prohibit discrimination against obese people. In fact, only laws in a handful of places around the country – those below – make it illegal to discriminate based on appearance at all:

Michigan
San Francisco, CA
Santa Cruz, CA
Washington, D.C.

Can Women Ever Win?
Fat prejudice is rampant, but thin prejudice occurs, too, as a new lawsuit by actress Kate Hudson brings to light. She’s suing tabloids for publishing photos that she says make her look dangerously thin, a state that she claims could endanger her chance of scoring future movie roles.

Poll: Are You Prejudiced Against Fat People?
Maybe more than you think, according to nearly 400 readers on www.marieclaire.com

68% would like to see a fat person on the cover of a magazine
73% would rather earn 20% less in salary than gain 20 pounds
57% say fat people shouldn’t have to pay for two airplane tickets if they’re too big for the seat
77% have seen a fat girl walk by with an average weight guy and thought, How’d she get him?
52% would go to an obese doctor, but only 13% would see an obese personal trainer
73% have been secretly disgusted when they saw a fat person eating junk food
71% have been secretly satisfied when someone they don’t like gained weight

When given a list of adjectives and asked to choose which described overweight people, respondents said undisciplined, unhappy, and lazy, but sensual, intelligent, and funny also made the cut.

I wonder how many of you, have done any of the things listed in this article.. to ME...the fat chick, cute and fun none the less, FAT

If you have I forgive you, just dont do it anymore..

Please send this fat acceptance letter to all you know and sign below, saying you wont talk smack about fat chicks....

- Mary Ellen -

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Hot guys piss me off ...

2005-12-18T09:22:00.000-08:00

December 18, 2005

Hot guys piss me off ...
Current mood: annoyed

OK question, I have been with a really hot guy, and he tends to ditch me for his oh so high society, frat boy loven, stoner friends. It pisses me off that I'm his hidden little secret. I understand the whole don't kiss and tell thing, but this has a whole new level to it ... which sucks..

AND yesterday i asked him about my issue and he simply replied "to be honest I'm a jerk" well duh Einstien I knew that one... but then again....**edit* ... {thinks back} .. uhh was I writting a blog... OH yeah LOL ..

anyway.. his reasoning for this was because he "grew up where looks were everything" and becasue Im not the perfect barbie doll Im screwed..

I told him to jump out of the mold with it, and to try something new... damnit he wouldnt... whatever.. he's ahottie anyway..

I wish I could find a good hottie , that would accept me for me .. and be able to introduce me to his friends, and hang out like real relationships do.

Granted I DO want to ge married and live the good LDS girl life ..

So my perfect man would be Handsome (though it doesnt really matter to me and _I_ mean it) LDS, ok with my size, has a career, (or is working on it in school) DOES HE EXIST????

Why am I a target?? Rape.. a serious blog...

2005-12-03T09:25:00.000-08:00

December 03, 2005

Sexual Asault... Why am I a target??
Current mood: numb

Tonight I was sleeping ... I fell asleep on my couch...and I was woken up by my friends boyfriend on top of me kissing me and groping me... He was going to try to RAPE ME... WHY DOES THIS HAPPEN TO ME??????? DO I HAVE A HUGE TARGET ON MY DOOR THAT SAYS .. "PLEASE COME VIOLATE THIS GIRL" ?????

I am ANGRY.. I am Sad... I am hurt...

I have BEEN raped before... but NOTHING LIKE THIS... Im not saying I was raped this time .. but emotionally I am more violated than my other "rapes".. Before all 4 times I have been raped _I_ led them on.. I had SOME part in letting them think I was interested... NOT IN THIS CASE>>> I have spoken to this man ONCE a month and a half ago....

It was at 11:30pm ... it is now 3 pm I have changed clothes... washed my face and brushed my teeth till they bleed... but I can still smell him here...

I DONT FEEL SAFE IN MY OWN HOME... He just CAME IN.. and helped himself to me.. like a serving of tuna fish.. his for the taking.. WHICH I AM NOT ...

I AM ANGRY>>>>

UPDATE:

The detective just called... He ADMITED IT ALL... AHHHHH... in one sence I am glad... so I dont have to "prove" that it really happened to me.. (I have guilt complex) but on the other hand since he admited it.. I think the DA will go lightly on him... and after all .. he didnt penatrate.. BUT I AM STILL EMOTIONALLY RAPED ...

Kyra's Birthday Party

2005-11-13T09:27:00.000-08:00

This is my first Blog, Im kinda excited about it :) HEHE :)

OK well I better write about the subject head LOL :)

OK well Kyra's B-day party was yesterday, she had a blast. It was a "tinkerbell" party... she was tinkerbell for halloween, so she wanted a tinkerbell birthday party.. and as always, she had a dress up party so everyone could wear thier costume a few more times.

She had alot of friends come to her party. and OH my it was a LONG party.. something like 15 kids showed up and OH my they were the most crazy 4-6 year olds!!! HEHE

OH yeah, my 2 friends Josh and Stacey helped me with controlling the little boogers LOL :)
HEHE :)

Talk to ya'll later :)

Mary